So, I ran into a particular someone today, someone I haven't seen in several years
Things didn't exactly end well between us, and I felt responsible for most of what happened
If I'm being honest with myself I had felt like it was time for some closure for a long while now, but I was so scared about how he would respond
I finally worked up the courage and was able to apologize and express my feelings, and I can't help but feel like it was kind of pointless...
He at least let me speak, but he didn't really say anything back, I got this impression of "okay now fuck off"
I keep telling myself things like at least I made my peace, if he really wanted to say something he would have, or well he had his chance and didn't take it
I dunno really, I guess a part of me wished we could move on, but such is life, can't always get what you wish for

All in all I'm fine, but this whole experience still kinda fucked with me emotionally
If anybody has any encouraging words, god I could really use them now
Thanks for reading