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7 years ago
Ahoy there!
Hello,
I know it's a bit narcissistic posting this to all...what is it...four of you? But it does me good to feel like someone cares about my life (cause I sure as f**k don't at this point, let's face it). I'm sorry to start of my first journal on a bit of a negative note, but hopefully by the time I post my next one, things will have cleared up a bit.
In short, I feel like Winston Smith. Running around in a world where your every move is tracked, your every word and action judged, and 'justice' is handed out brutally and without mercy by a small set of people who control you completely. I've been hiding for too long, but slowly every peice of joy that I once felt in living has been systematically squeezed out of me, possibly even without the knowledge of those involved. I feel like a purjed wreck. A hollow shell of what I once was, forged by the very artificial world around me into a mindless machine meant only to obey. The final peice of that fell into place today and I've nowhere left to run.
In 5-6 months this will all be over, one way or another. I look forward to the day when I can be a dragon again.
Yours Sincerely,
KyuSiik, Creator of Worlds
I know it's a bit narcissistic posting this to all...what is it...four of you? But it does me good to feel like someone cares about my life (cause I sure as f**k don't at this point, let's face it). I'm sorry to start of my first journal on a bit of a negative note, but hopefully by the time I post my next one, things will have cleared up a bit.
In short, I feel like Winston Smith. Running around in a world where your every move is tracked, your every word and action judged, and 'justice' is handed out brutally and without mercy by a small set of people who control you completely. I've been hiding for too long, but slowly every peice of joy that I once felt in living has been systematically squeezed out of me, possibly even without the knowledge of those involved. I feel like a purjed wreck. A hollow shell of what I once was, forged by the very artificial world around me into a mindless machine meant only to obey. The final peice of that fell into place today and I've nowhere left to run.
In 5-6 months this will all be over, one way or another. I look forward to the day when I can be a dragon again.
Yours Sincerely,
KyuSiik, Creator of Worlds
