I do realise that December is over, however I had a major tablet emergency on my hands, along with several other pressing issues that affected my workflow. I’m trying to avoid pouring out my personal life problems here, as it doesn’t benefit anyone and looks more like a cheap excuse than an actual explanation. This is why I would prefer to stick to the professional matters.

The tablet that broke down around Christmas was replaced thanks to a very generous friend. The new machine is much better than my previous one and it allowed me to improve significantly on my work, at least in my opinion. However, I needed time to get adjusted and experiment with the new machine in order to fully commit to the paid pieces. I’m sorry, it just wouldn’t sit well with me to do otherwise and fudge the commissions.

I had all intention of clearing my queue as soon as possible, but the delay pushed me back on all Dickember pieces, as well as other artwork not related to the event. Currently there are 14 projects that I must finish in order to get back on track, and I fully intend to do so. However, this, paired with few other stresses and the fact I stayed home alone for the Christmas period, caused a major anxiety and depression. I don’t cope well with stress, and 14 overdue pieces hanging over my head is enough reason to not sleep well at night without any additional external factors. But here we are.

I was trying to finish one of the seasonal commissions as quickly as I could, but in all the rush I have overwritten the main file with a botched version. This meant I lost 20+ hours of work and this simply broke the proverbial camel’s back. I got into a major funk and I was struggling to get out of bed for the past 10 days or so. This incident also caused a falling out with my good friends, which didn’t help the general feeling. I’m not negligent, but the last thing you want me to do is to work on your piece when I feel like shit and all I want to do is sleep.

Thankfully my fiancé and my BFF are doing their best to help. Furlana is coming over tomorrow from Poland to cheer me up. We intend to get some work done while she is here, however, I cannot guarantee I will finish anything before she has gone back home. We will try our best, but at the moment her company and cheering up is what I need.

I’m sorry if this doesn’t seem enough, but I cannot do much else than apologise and provide an explanation. I had several things eat up at my psyche and the fallout of the tablet breakdown simply pushed me into a spiral of self-sabotage. It is what it is. I hope you can understand, if not feel free to note me.

Regards,

~Kael