One thing I love about not being a big name I can vent and not worry others.

I look back on my life and just want to scream. My yonger home I was just the brat
I enjoy running as far as I could ,but I was always the weird naive kid who could be exploited to do dirty work aka a minion. Even when I found friends I had the same interest in I still couldn't geek out over other things. I couldn't complain about being dyslexic or having ADHD because I was smart in science well beyond my grade level ,but was still just another spicial ed student because I can't comprehend the basic of the language I speak. Two side smart ,but stupid to the point others saw me as helpless even my teacher didn't think I was worth the time.my algebra 2 teacher though I was cheating and failed me in my senior year.

Now I can't even find things to hold my attention for long. I'm at an age where it can be disaterest. I move so I could start over ,but I feel myself staying in the same rut. No great social skills, anxiety when meeting new people. He'll I'm staying with family and they see me as an oddball because I love furs anime ,art and science. It didn't fit the your a man you should be interested in sports, drinking, dirty thinking, tring to find a partner and a career.
The thing is I've form myself to everyone else not knowing how to let my real self out that I can't figure out what I'm good at what in the world I can actualy do. I'll prolly delete this when I wake up and be embarrass I let a little of my dark feeling show because I'm to dame sentive and think I'm a hassle for wording people. Mostly when I did want help No One ever tried listen and understand. Maybe it why I always want to lisen and help others there something to think on.
If you actual read this mess thank you and sorry for wasting your time. I'll be back to my weird self in a day or two just.