❗ This journal contains mentions/descriptions of sex, violence, abuse, and other potentially disturbing things ❗

So 2018 was pretty transformative for me! I started medication, improved my work ethic, [Namiin] and I added a new partner to our lives (hi [Skott]!) and had him visit us, I hit some roadblocks, I started socializing on Twitter and FA more... so many things! I learned a lot about myself.

One of the biggest changes was to my desires as a creator. I want to add much more variety to my art, especially my porn art. New kinks, darker themes, some weird and uncomfortable things... I've limited myself for a long time to what I thought others wanted to see, but instead, I would like 2019 to be the year for I want to see. By 2020, I hope to be a very different artist.

This journal should give you an idea of what this change means, the things I want to do, how I want to do them, and if you can avoid things you don’t like. I also talk about why, and link to some sources.

By the end, if you stay to watch me develop some of these things, then that’s really cool! If you’d rather unwatch, also cool. Whether you’re a recent watcher, or you’ve been here for years, it’s your choice - all I’m doing is giving you the means with which to make it.

What I'm doing

To be clear, everything I already do in my art, I’m going to continue to do! I'll never get rid [Paige], for instance, and he’s always going to be a good boy with a fluffy story. I have some other cute characters I'm working on, too. I’m just expanding my horizons.

Here are the new things I'll be exploring, listed in no particular order.

• Ferals/animals - Pokemon, [dragons], and eventually regular animals like dogs and horses. Both on their own, and with anthros and humans.

• Incest - [Brooke] and the [Hux twins] are both exclusively into siblings; I might do other flavors later.

• Different bodies/genders - Interchangeable, multiple, or fantasy genitals. Some of these characters are transgender, some aren’t. Some of these will feature terms like cuntboy and dickgirl, some won’t; I’m trans, and I like them, but I decide based on the individual character's personality.

• Dubious consent and non-consent - Characters in sticky situations. From love potions and hypnosis, to role-play/consensual-non-consent scenes, to predators and serial rapists who use manipulation, threats, and force.

• Violence and gore - Some consensual, some not. Fighting, biting, knife...ing. Blood, but probably not guts. Oh, did I mention that [Blaine] is a cannibal...? I might also draw snuff, I’m not sure.

• Trauma, mental illness, and abuse - Characters either having a bad day, making sure others do, or both. Some are working on it, some aren’t. Some of this is very sexual, some isn't. Blaine has a stalking/psychological terror arch later in his story; the Hux twins have a complicated past, etc.

I originally had my character [Trish] in this list, since I was referring to him as a "trap." After [doing] some [research], I won't be, and so I’ve removed him. I'm using [otokonoko] and [honeypot] instead.

❗ While I’m here, remember that some of these things may be fun in fantasy, but they can be damaging in real life. It’s porn, not a manual! ❗

Tagging, blacklisting, and thumbnails

I’ll go back through my gallery and tag stuff as I can. Going forward, I'll use the following systems

On FA

Until FA adds tag-filtering, I’ll have broad warnings in the submission titles. Keep an eye out, or use the Filter Affinity addon ([Chrome]/[Firefox]) to hide things automatically. It even works in the beta layout.

I’ll tag feral, incest, non-con, gore, and snuff this way. Example: [Non-con] Rough Night

Filter Affinity also scans the beginning of descriptions, where I will sometimesbe more specific. Try blocking things like “father/son” or “anthro on feral,” and it looks like it should catch most things, including variations like “father and son” and “anthro x feral.” However, I CAN’T guarantee this part. I might forget, or the filter could miss it for some reason or another. Mind the titles first, test the rest yourself, and use your judgment.

For most (not all) gore and snuff, and for some (not all) non-con, I'll also upload a cropped version of the image, and link to the full one in the description.

On Patreon

Only non-con, gore, and snuff will get explicit warnings. Ferals, incest, and everything else will not.

June 2019 edit: I probably won't post this stuff directly to Patreon, actually. You'll find it in the new discord.

On Twitter

Similar to Patreon. For non-con, gore, and snuff, I might switch between two methods. I'm leaning toward uploading two versions of an image - one blurred, with the warning written on it, and one that's totally unblurred. I may also upload only a blurred version, with a link to the full piece on FA or somewhere else. Still figuring it out.

Why this change?

I find these things interesting! That's really the core of it all.

I enjoy that fiction allows the freedom to be anything or anyone, to learn, to heal, to challenge ourselves, and the endless possibilities of “what if.” I mix sex in with these subjects because, for me, they’ve often gone hand in hand.

I was torn about doing this for a long time. If I could; how I should; freaking out when I finally decided that I would, haha. I think many people are nervous that this “problematic” content, especially when sexual, will encourage abusers, or trivialize victims, or that only dangerous people like it. However, after over three years of reading, researching, and talking at great length with my psychologist (20+ years experience), this seems not to be true in the majority of cases. People who do harm to others probably do have fantasies about it, but having fantasies is not what causes us to do harm, and while some may never feel like there’s value in dark fiction, there is at least evidence that it’s not as harmful as others claim.

In contrast, pretending that dark fantasies aren’t a natural part of being human can lead to harm. Only allowing “good” fantasies, and condemning “bad” ones, can breed guilt and shame, and conflating fantasy and reality can make us blind to issues we need to address.

Here are some sources on these topics: [1] - [2] - [3] -  [4] - [5] - [6] - [7]

At the end of the day, I don’t want to be only a horror artist, nor only a porn artist, but a mix of both. Things that are frightening or uncomfortable can often be arousing and irresistible as well.

Also, let’s just call a spade a spade. Villains are hot.

Will you do it on commission?

Yep! Commissions are closed currently, other than occasional sketch slots. If you nab one, you can ask for stuff from this list - if it's a really hardcore idea, just run it past me first I guess.

Support

If you not only want to watch me, but feel particularly jazzed about this stuff, then you can check out my [Patreon], and get a front-row seat. Almost all my art ends up on FA and Twitter anyway, but $1 Patrons get some extras, exclusives, and early access. You can give me art suggestions, vote, and help me develop my characters.

Thank you!

In the beginning of last year, one of my goals was to create characters and tell stories. Looking back, I can see that I was searching for what that meant for a long time... I guess it only clicked a few months ago. Only very recently does it actually feel achievable. I'm very thankful for everyone who was supportive and encouraged me while I figured it out.

That said, I still don't know everything, so I’m open to input. I've already stumbled a little, and 'm sure I will again. When I do, I just want to use it as an opportunity to learn, so I hope people will bear with me while I, uh work out the kinks.

Sorry, had to.

Comments are disabled, but if you want to talk to me, you can note me on FA with [this link], or [DM me on Twitter], or [e-mail me] I would love to hear from you.

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