*hugs* :<

I'm on Telegram if you need an ear

Don't worry about ranting too much. Sometimes yelling it out is a good way to deal with the initial stress. Things can get hard and sometimes it helps to take a break from things to try and relax. As bad as it may be now it'll get better, you just have to give it time. If you ever need to talk, there's plenty of nice people out here to help you vent, just remember that it will get better, no matter how bad it may seem now.

Thank you for your kind words...I just looked back at this journal and I still remember the boiling moment when I was typing words out :/ I’m doing better now..,things do get better so hope I can control myself better too.

Glad you're doing better, and don't worry too much about it. Sometimes we have moments where we reach dark places and have to yell out in order to stop ourselves from doing something bad. We'll be here for ya, and there's lots of resources out there willing to help if bad feelings and events come up again, so don't worry, talking it out here is much preferred than you potentially harming yourself.

Im familiar with all those things. professional help isnt a bad thing at all. and they're not there to judge you but give you a new plastic thing to hold your six pack together with. Ignore the stigma. if you hurt your toe you go to the podiatrist, if its your brain you go to the psychiatrist. NBD * hugs*

Thank you for the kind words, they calmed me down alot. I was afraid of being judged...

You're very welcome. If you have questions just ask. I've been shouldering this load for 20 years.

Oh no - - Byo... :s


Like others have commented, a mental health if just like any other health with specialists and such. Take care of it as you would a broken arm.

Just about Betterhelp™, mmmkay?

Hey there, I’m doing better now ;-; thank you for your concern, I’ll try to fight this!

First off see your doctor (or at the very least call some free helplines for a chat about it and advice, I think most countries would have them).

If you have any friends locally that you trust enough to talk to, having a chat with them might also help :)

Right, I’ll start to look up some information about procedures for now, and hopefully I’m equipped enough to fight bad things again when they come.
Thanks!

Maybe try to see a psychologist, talking helps. Psychiatrists only fill you with drugs.
Finding a good therapist might be difficult, not all of them are good and you can't feel at ease with all of them either, but it can help feeling better when you find the right one.
Some books can also help, authors like Alice Miller and Muriel Salmona for instance. Avoid Freudian theories like plague.
Good luck, I hope you'll get better eventually.

Those are some good info about doctors....I didnt know there are 2 kinds. Note taken.
I do have some books but they are about arts, maybe I should read some of those, along with checking out what you mentioned
Thank you very much for your help :) I appreciate it alot

My pleasure. I hope you'll get better :)
Psychologists and psychiatrists are very different. Psychiatrists are doctors, psychologists aren't. Most psychiatrists aren't good therapists, they'll mostly give medicines. The psychiatrists my family and I have met were really awkward, brutal, and never helped.
Psychologists aren't doctors, they offer therapies by talking, some add techniques like hypnosis, for instance. I know people who get really good results against anxiety with hypnosis. Try looking to the websites of your nearby therapists if they have one. Generally speaking, if there are statements on their sites about ordinary violence during childhood and how it leads to trauma when the child becomes adult, there's a better chance to meet someone who will help.
You must always keep in mind, when meeting a therapist, that if you feel bad, if you're anxious and depressed, or feeling void, that it is NOT your fault. Any person telling you that you like doing that to yourself, that you're seeking attention (I've met a psychiatrist who told me that...) won't help you.

Anyway, never forget that there will always be people around you who will help you. Don't hesitate to ask for help. Talk. Try to hang out with your friends. And eat ice cream with them and watch Disney movies. Never isolate yourself.

http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html Please talk to someone!

I came out of a really awful depression years ago. I think what worked best for me was to spend time trying to really figure out why I'm stressed and sad, trying to understand what the real problem is and the triggers for it. It takes a while and it's not easy, but when you do, you can address those problems directly.

Doctors will be quick to give you drugs which just cover the symptoms of your depression and anxiety. You need to get to the sources. A really lame analogy, but drugs are like when your dog pees on the floor and you just throw news papers on it. It's still there, all it did was cover it up. At a certain point, the entire floor is covered with newspapers and you can't see the spot anymore, but you still smell it. Trying to find the source, or sources, is the hardest part.

When you talk to be you need to really say what you think, and not be afraid, especially if it's how you really feel. Sometimes that upsets people, but it's all there to try and help you to understand yourself.

I know exactly what my problem is and I am trying to get out of it, but because different perspectives somehow I kept being dragged back in and no matter how much I tried, I’m still seen as WRONG and it’s frustrating af that my voice is not heard well.

It feels like you can never win. If you need to talk specifics hmu.

:( If you need someone to talk to, you can always hit me up. Whenever I feel upset or anxious I like to write down my feelings and thought process into a journal, that way they are less in my mind and I can review them at a later time. Sometimes you can't explain other peoples' behavior, but you can try your best to understand your own.

I hope you are able to feel better soon, we're all cheering for you! o/

Thank you Steel, I appreciate your advice and I gotta agree writing down does help alot. I used to write journal and it helped. But this time, I’m so drained I cant do anything else :( I’ll just give it sometimes and try to stay away from things abit.
Also, remember when you said Vietnameses are weird on Twitter? Yes, fuck yes they are...

030) get some professional help dude

1. Do not worry about venting here or anywhere. There is no shame in admitting that you are at the end of your rope. That you aren't having a good time. That you need help. No one who's sane looks at their broken arm and says "Yeah, I think this is fine, no need for any assistance here!"

2. I don't know where you live, so it's hard to point you in an actually helpful direction, but in the United States we have the National Suicide Prevention Hotline and another service who's name escapes me. If you haven't already, talk with them (Depending on where you are are, there may be different services)

3. If this is something that has been going on for some time, talk with a professional. Again, as I don't know where you live it is difficult for me to give actual advice, but I'll do my best. If you are in the US and you are unable to pay the full price, you should consider finding a therapist that works on "Sliding Scale" pay. Meaning the less you can pay, the less they charge. If you are in a country with nationalised health care, this process will be different and I can't really advise on it at all. Your "General Doctor" may be able to help point you in the correct direction along with that service's website.

I hope what I've said is useful to you and I wish you all the best. I've been there, many of my friends have been there. Just remember you aren't alone in this.

I don't think I ever commented on anyone's FA journal, but that record is now broken for me too :P

I know I chatted with you a while back on TG, but PLEASE know that there's no shame in talking to people about stuff like this! I know how hard it can be to open up with people (it took me years before I could talk to a psychologist about things), so start small! You never know where you'll find support, and I think you'll find that the more you open up to people who you know you can trust, the sooner you'll start that recovery process.

We're here for ya, Bi. You're a heckin talented person and we're glad you're still here with us, persevering through this. <3

Hey there,
Thank you for your kind words, it sucks things cant be great all the time, I try to be rational and I’m glad i vent out here, lotsa comments help get me back on track.

Sao vậy Byo ? Bình tĩnh lại tí... có gì còn 500 anh e giúp đỡ mà.

First and foremost: Talk to someone, getting that stress out is the number 1 thing that I think you should do right now. Friend, family member, someone that you know you can trust and talk to. Even if you just have to vent to them, vent, it's better you get it out than leave it in. Trust me, bottling things up will destroy you from the inside out.

Thank you so much for taking your time to write some words for me, I needed them and they helped.
I did manage to talk to some good friends and vent out my frustration. It helps, I feel less hopeless now and I’ll be able to fight again, but I’d rather try to find a way to stop this completely ;-;

I understand, it's hard, but it helps when you talk to someone. When you get it out, you can decompress and start to think rationally again. You're a-okay, keep fighting, you're stronger than you know!

There's no shame in venting or opening up about your mental health, we all experience these sort of things Letting things out is the first step to healing, if you have someone you trust it may be a good idea to talk to them about it. Therapy is also incredibly helpful if you're willing to do it, it may be hard at first but it does wonders in the long term! Stay strong dude, you got this! Don't let the angry voices in your head rule your life.

Hey thank you so much, your encouragement helps me, I appreciate it, I was very much frustrated with bad judgement from my family and it feels like my stress was not taken seriously, I’m glad venting up here wasn’t a bad choice..

I've been there, sucks when people don't take you seriously, especially when you're suffering... Don't worry about them, just work on taking care of yourself <3

Hey now Byo..... I know things aren't going the way you want them to right now but... hang in there okay? You're a strong bun! If you need to talk, you know where to find me kay?

Hope you will manage to find out what is stressing you so much and a way to cope with it, and find a new balance. Wishing you all the best.