I've been feeling really lonely and out of it lately. I really wish I had more people to talk and bond with. I long for friendships and people I can talk to more than of just once or twice a month, though, I don't get far with talking to others because I strongly believe that I'm a waste of time and a boring butt that can't hold a conversation because of social anxiety and the lack of knowledge in pretty much anything and everything, as well as simply being shy.

...I just want to be a part of something...
...I can't stop feeling lonely...
...I can't stop feeling bad...
It's my own fault