Beware! This is just a rant from real life.

Yesterday I began to backup my data onto a 1TB hard drive from Windows because there was something that was consuming so much CPU power and Task Manager or other resource programs refuse to show me what was running that was consume so much of it. Either way I was planning to reinstall Windows 10 because the stupid M$ update that screwed the performance on it back in October. Also I was planning to remove all RAID SSDs in order to have a 1TB SSD instead since RAID caused some issues either way. So I began to remove all the SSDs from the computer except one which was the 1TB SSD. Now in my haste, I guess, when reinstalling Windows 10, I didn't notice that the drive being shown was the Backup data I had in another 1 TB hard drive. Apparently my fingers were too quick for my brain because I then realized that this wasn't the SSD. I didn't do a full format or delete on the hard drive, just simply deleted the partition. I've tried two softwares and Windows 10's own DOS prompt "diskpart" command to make it show up. It refuses to show any kind of deleted partition so now I'm forced to recover the damn data manually. The issue? Well let me mention that I tried to use EASUS Partition manager in attempt to recover it but found nothing. This took 10 hours to scan the entire hard drive. Next I tried EASUS To-DO Backup, which seemed to find the partition BUT, it didn't seem to find ALL data that is located in each of the folders and seems to find random ones and label them generic files. So its possible that I just lost about 15 years worth of data. Be it pictures, videos, documents... everything. All this happened last night around 1 am CST. I spent about 4 more hours trying to UNdelete the partition. So I've lost sleep because I woke up around 9 am and continued on. Right now I'm running R-Studio which is good at finding files and what not within a hard drive. Some of you already know that I don't have much work when it comes to fixing people's computers and as of late, its become a financial issue and getting damn close to that. So not only that is happening but this data loss just added more stress into my head causing me not to feel any hunger whatsoever all day long. Nothing but water all day. Perhaps I should force myself to eat but the problem is, once I take a few bites, I know I'm not going to finish 2/4th of it. So if some of you don't see me active on Discord or other places, its because of stress of life just kicking you down hard. No, I'm not asking for any help or donation because this is nothing more than a rant I need to let out before I explode. So... what next LIFE?! Its times like these I WISH I could turn those damn fucking lemons into lemon grenades and chuck them at LIFE's fucking mansion!