before i get into my random emotional blah blah blah here is an update on stuff you should all know:
- district 9 was awesome!
- i cant get "catch my disease" out of my head
- all my managers at work are fuckign useless and dont know what they are doing
- if i was a color today it would be olive green
- Jeff (my mate) is awesome and i love him forever for being the sweetest thing on earth when i was deathly ill
- Sparx and Glitch are on holiday without internet access and its eating me alive X(



WEIRD EMOTIONAL RANT:
Ok so its the beginning of the fall semester and between taking a full course load and working full time i think I'm going to pop. after my first day of school i caught the stomach flu from hell and was in the fetal position all day puking my guts out but only after my manager insinuated that i was calling in to get a 3 day weekend. being so busy might be a good thing. right now i get frustrated that i don't have time to talk to friends online and be social but all my online friends have fallen off the face of the earth with school and stuff so even if i had the time ,they don't and i would feel even more lonely. Some of my friends i do not know if they ever plan on coming back. everyone gets busy with their own lives but I hate when i drift apart from people, its more painful than i would like to admit... i know I can always meet new people and move on but I don't want to, every time i spend time with someone they leave this impression on me that gets connected with everything else i experienced while knowing them and every time something that reminds me of them comes up i feel this deep sense of lose in the core of my being. it is so bad that i have given up hobbies bands, places, and foods just to avoid having to be reminded how much i miss them. now i know this sounds like someone talking about their ex-boy/girlfriend and i think its normal for that situation but i do this with almost all my friends that i lose touch with...
anyways not trying to be a downer but i,m siting here before class and no one i know is online.

in conclusion, i love you guys (you know who you are hopefully) you are more important to me than you will ever know and i hope even if we drift apart that someday we can drift back together and share what we've learned and how we've grown