Time for blue to heal up.
6 years ago
I don't feel like drawing lately, won't hide it, last pieces i was really struggling through. But since this is my only job and only income, i can't give up just yet~
I feel really apathetic and stressed out last couple of years, like, constantly. Recently i've been to few different doctors spilling out my complaints about several health problems and.. There was something every single doc said to me regardless of the problem - "you have to reduce stress and stop worrying too much overall or there's gonna be consequences". And i think i'm already experiencing the beginning of this.
So i really feel guilty for saying this, but i HAVE TO take a vacation for at least a full month or a bit more, clear my mind and regain the desire for drawing before i totally lose the drive. Not like i'm going to leave you all without some updates completely, at some point i'll start practicing again so i don't forget how to draw cocks'n'asses, hah. But i need this rest, urgently. Hope you'll understand, thanks a ton...
P.S.: For all my Patreon supporters - i know it's lame of me to stop for a moment and leave you without content, so i will understand if you stop supporting me, that's cool. Tho i'll rely on you, because it will be my only income for this time till i return to commissions and projects~ And meanwhile i'll rearrange my Patreon tiers and other stuff as promised and think about new things to add if possible, so not ditching you at all. Thanks for keeping me floating <3
I feel really apathetic and stressed out last couple of years, like, constantly. Recently i've been to few different doctors spilling out my complaints about several health problems and.. There was something every single doc said to me regardless of the problem - "you have to reduce stress and stop worrying too much overall or there's gonna be consequences". And i think i'm already experiencing the beginning of this.
So i really feel guilty for saying this, but i HAVE TO take a vacation for at least a full month or a bit more, clear my mind and regain the desire for drawing before i totally lose the drive. Not like i'm going to leave you all without some updates completely, at some point i'll start practicing again so i don't forget how to draw cocks'n'asses, hah. But i need this rest, urgently. Hope you'll understand, thanks a ton...
P.S.: For all my Patreon supporters - i know it's lame of me to stop for a moment and leave you without content, so i will understand if you stop supporting me, that's cool. Tho i'll rely on you, because it will be my only income for this time till i return to commissions and projects~ And meanwhile i'll rearrange my Patreon tiers and other stuff as promised and think about new things to add if possible, so not ditching you at all. Thanks for keeping me floating <3
The most important thing is that you dont overwork yourself.
Just enjoy that vacation without a single worry.
Wouldn`t be good if the quality dropped because of how you`re feeling right now.
We will await your full return and welcome it, we will also wait for the cocks'n'asses.
We all love your art and your Youtube Videos.
Everyone will understand that from time to time a break is necessary.
Good luck to you
You're too good at those subjects to forget how to every draw them so well - You'll be fine Blue! Best wishes~ <3
So again, this is no problem at all. As I mentioned months ago I consider myself lucky to have won a chance to get art from one of my most favoritestestestest artists, and I'd wait 6 more months (or even longer) simply because I love what you do. So don't worry about me or my commission, friend. I have no problem waiting. <3 <3 ^_^ <3 <3
You shouldn't apologize for it because everyone needs to take a break, unless they want to overwork themselves and cause harm to themselves. I hope you'll be able to relax though and enjoy the vacation time you take!
The responses I got from them were very positive, and hearing them say it with their own words that they prefer me to finish my work than giving them a refund did wonders to my psyche. The brain's a bastard and creates all of these doomsday scenarios that make you feel terribly guilty and bad about your art(Either because you're not as good as others, not as fast as others, etc), and this can quickly become a debilitating feeling.
So what made you struggle with the last pieces? What makes drawing unfun for you? And in a hypothetical scenario, what could make drawing fun again? Write down the answers to these questions, and afterwards, see which elements you can take steps towards improving. Putting your problems down onto a physical(notebook) or digital format(a text document) is much much better than keeping it all in your head and it can also act as a motivational goal.
If anyone tries to crack a whip to make you work when you need to focus on something else, then you need to separate yourself from that person. So don't let anyone be toxic toward you in regards to this decision.
Take all the time you need to recharge. Don't worry, I'm not to un-watch you no matter how long you are gone. Good luck.