My wife went into the hospital last Monday, 2/18, with severe abdominal pain. Turns out, she had a perforated duodenum from overuse of ibuprofen. And also severe blood loss from the same perforated ulcer over a long, long period of time. The perforation is fixed now and she got transfusions. But I'm not okay. I haven't been since she went in, but it's hitting me now how close she could have been to losing her life. How close I was to losing her.

I won't be okay for a long time. I want to be sure that my wife is okay, that she heals and this doesn't come close to happening again. So I'm going to be cautious from now on, more so than before. This is exhausting, doubly so for her no doubt. I want her home, but I don't want to rush things. I don't like sleeping alone. I'm so tired.

Everyone, take care of yourselves and your loved ones. Be careful and cry if you need to. This sucks.