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Merble Burter
6 years ago
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I feel like I keep throwing money and time away. Nevermind all the stuff I talked about that happened over the last few years.
Even on my off days, when I finally have a chance to do something*, I either suddenly get too sleepy and need to take a nap, or I spend all my time catering to my kids who "need" to use the bathroom every 15 minutes or so.
* = most of the time, like at least 90% (that's not an exaggeration), it's bad weather (usually rain) that stops me from doing much of anything.
I've noticed for the last few years that every time I'm just about to get my check from my job, something suddenly breaks or is destroyed (kids) and needs replaced, or one of the utilities is trying to scam me again and wants too much money.
I call it a scam. They claim they didn't get my last payment, or got it late, and so they require I pay more money, or bill me double. There's hardly any water being used, so there's no reason that the water bill needs to over $70.
Oh, and we hard our water and sewer separate here, even though they are pretty much the same thing and their buildings are quite literally next to each other. My sewer bill is often more than the water, and is for some reason up in the $40s.
$110+ for water and sewer is stupid. It keeps rising every other month. And there are more bills along with that. Even with the few extra hours I'm finally getting after working for a few years, I still can't afford much.
Maybe I should have used the money that I bought brand new guitars and clothes and model packs for others with and gotten myself something instead... Meh.
...It doesn't matter, I would have helped them out and tried to make them feel better anyway regardless, even if they just come back to poop all over me.
Anyway, even though I did buy myself a couple of things (like that bike which I STILL CAN'T RIDE!!!), I feel it's now a waste of money. They either break, or I can't do anything.
Ugh, I was going somewhere with this journal before I went on that bill tangent...
My off days and free time shouldn't be spent like this. I feel cheated some days.
I started something the other day that I should continue. I'm gonna make a list of small goals to get done when I can, mostly on my off days. I need to and will try to model AND POST something when I have free time. That's something to do.
Even on my off days, when I finally have a chance to do something*, I either suddenly get too sleepy and need to take a nap, or I spend all my time catering to my kids who "need" to use the bathroom every 15 minutes or so.
* = most of the time, like at least 90% (that's not an exaggeration), it's bad weather (usually rain) that stops me from doing much of anything.
I've noticed for the last few years that every time I'm just about to get my check from my job, something suddenly breaks or is destroyed (kids) and needs replaced, or one of the utilities is trying to scam me again and wants too much money.
I call it a scam. They claim they didn't get my last payment, or got it late, and so they require I pay more money, or bill me double. There's hardly any water being used, so there's no reason that the water bill needs to over $70.
Oh, and we hard our water and sewer separate here, even though they are pretty much the same thing and their buildings are quite literally next to each other. My sewer bill is often more than the water, and is for some reason up in the $40s.
$110+ for water and sewer is stupid. It keeps rising every other month. And there are more bills along with that. Even with the few extra hours I'm finally getting after working for a few years, I still can't afford much.
Maybe I should have used the money that I bought brand new guitars and clothes and model packs for others with and gotten myself something instead... Meh.
...It doesn't matter, I would have helped them out and tried to make them feel better anyway regardless, even if they just come back to poop all over me.
Anyway, even though I did buy myself a couple of things (like that bike which I STILL CAN'T RIDE!!!), I feel it's now a waste of money. They either break, or I can't do anything.
Ugh, I was going somewhere with this journal before I went on that bill tangent...
My off days and free time shouldn't be spent like this. I feel cheated some days.
I started something the other day that I should continue. I'm gonna make a list of small goals to get done when I can, mostly on my off days. I need to and will try to model AND POST something when I have free time. That's something to do.
