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meh
6 years ago
Sorry, Iv been ignoring my furry art stuff for probably like a month now. time passes so fast now its hard to keep track.
I was creating a lot and doing a lot for a passion I have of writing a book. But after putting my heart and soul into it so diligently, people didnt seem to care about my idea.
I dont know, I want to do something amazing with my life. More than creating furry gore art. I dont hate anyone here its just, I very rarely like doing gore art anymore.
Of course I still have undiagnosed stuff with Bipolar disorder. Maybe I only like gore when I am depressive. But I dont like being depressed.
I am just so frustrated right now that I dont care to be a little mean.
Its unfair though. All my commisioners have been amazingly patient and kind.
maybe it would make more sense if you all could see what i have been doing recently
https://www.deviantart.com/zeaot/ar.....hore-793260161
Maybe part of me just hates this furry stuff because I am afraid that if I get famous one day, It will be stiffled by criticism of the weird stuff iv drawn. Like what if people found out Tolkian drew sadistic gore, would they have ever gotten as famous.
The other option is I could become a sort of cult leader of depravity.
I dont know. I want to become something great. Greatness motivates me more than money but the world doesnt run off of greatness, it runs off of money. if you are great enough money will just kind of come to you in a sense.
Its a little more complicated than that. I just dont know what I want to do.
I was creating a lot and doing a lot for a passion I have of writing a book. But after putting my heart and soul into it so diligently, people didnt seem to care about my idea.
I dont know, I want to do something amazing with my life. More than creating furry gore art. I dont hate anyone here its just, I very rarely like doing gore art anymore.
Of course I still have undiagnosed stuff with Bipolar disorder. Maybe I only like gore when I am depressive. But I dont like being depressed.
I am just so frustrated right now that I dont care to be a little mean.
Its unfair though. All my commisioners have been amazingly patient and kind.
maybe it would make more sense if you all could see what i have been doing recently
https://www.deviantart.com/zeaot/ar.....hore-793260161
Maybe part of me just hates this furry stuff because I am afraid that if I get famous one day, It will be stiffled by criticism of the weird stuff iv drawn. Like what if people found out Tolkian drew sadistic gore, would they have ever gotten as famous.
The other option is I could become a sort of cult leader of depravity.
I dont know. I want to become something great. Greatness motivates me more than money but the world doesnt run off of greatness, it runs off of money. if you are great enough money will just kind of come to you in a sense.
Its a little more complicated than that. I just dont know what I want to do.
For what its worth I think its going to come out great eventually. I have been doing lots of art in the past month, Just not furry art.
I hope you will continue doing art and commissions.