Back home from TFF, thoughts on my first furcon!
6 years ago
So, after spending two weeks in Texas, I was greeted by good old Michigan welcoming me with a blanket of snow in April. Its good to be home. I was going to post a journal earlier, but I was staying with friends and I wanted to wait until I got home to freshen up and do it!
Aside from a few cold days, and a few obviously-under-the-influence-of-something and charming public transportation weirdos, it was a wonderful trip!
Going to a furcon is something I didn't think I would ever do, partially being put off by the idea from being lightly involved in the community, the prospect of socializing on such a scale away from home being scary, and the thought of people judging me for being a part of it even scarier.
Iv always been afraid of judgment from others, and I have always worried about what people think of me. I grew up in an environment where everyone bullied and made fun of each other for their interests, so its only natural that most people established a sort of barrier socially as they were kids. Unfortunately, this barrier persisted well into my adult life. I have had confidence issues for as long as I can remember, and opening up on a personal level is something I really only did with online furry friends. I'v been getting better about it over time, slowly, but its still something I struggle with.
Using TFF as an excuse to go visit out of state friends Iv been wanting to see for years, me, and a few other friends all traveled to Texas to meet up with our group. The con its self was a lot better than I was expecting; everyone participating was so friendly and open. Iv never seen so many people just happy to exist in a place together. I dressed up in a silly little outfit that I'l probably end up posting later. It wasn't much, nothing like a fursuit, but it was nice to just be able to walk around, be myself, not have to worry about acting collected and professional, and just be a big dumb gay furry. Mingling and flirting with people in public has never been something I'v ever had a desire to do prior, but I found myself getting friendly with people, saying hi, the whole nine yards.
I learned a lot about things I thought I knew already. Talking to random furs, stuff like open relationships and gender neutrality make more sense to me. (Not that I was against either! It was just brought some clarity)
After its all said and done, I feel a lot more confident in myself, and my ability to socialize on a level past casual friendship. I'l be looking for cons to go to in the future, and I most certainly will be going back to TFF next year.
Thanks for reading if you bothered, I wanted to at least talk about it and this is the only place I really have to do it ^^
Aside from a few cold days, and a few obviously-under-the-influence-of-something and charming public transportation weirdos, it was a wonderful trip!
Going to a furcon is something I didn't think I would ever do, partially being put off by the idea from being lightly involved in the community, the prospect of socializing on such a scale away from home being scary, and the thought of people judging me for being a part of it even scarier.
Iv always been afraid of judgment from others, and I have always worried about what people think of me. I grew up in an environment where everyone bullied and made fun of each other for their interests, so its only natural that most people established a sort of barrier socially as they were kids. Unfortunately, this barrier persisted well into my adult life. I have had confidence issues for as long as I can remember, and opening up on a personal level is something I really only did with online furry friends. I'v been getting better about it over time, slowly, but its still something I struggle with.
Using TFF as an excuse to go visit out of state friends Iv been wanting to see for years, me, and a few other friends all traveled to Texas to meet up with our group. The con its self was a lot better than I was expecting; everyone participating was so friendly and open. Iv never seen so many people just happy to exist in a place together. I dressed up in a silly little outfit that I'l probably end up posting later. It wasn't much, nothing like a fursuit, but it was nice to just be able to walk around, be myself, not have to worry about acting collected and professional, and just be a big dumb gay furry. Mingling and flirting with people in public has never been something I'v ever had a desire to do prior, but I found myself getting friendly with people, saying hi, the whole nine yards.
I learned a lot about things I thought I knew already. Talking to random furs, stuff like open relationships and gender neutrality make more sense to me. (Not that I was against either! It was just brought some clarity)
After its all said and done, I feel a lot more confident in myself, and my ability to socialize on a level past casual friendship. I'l be looking for cons to go to in the future, and I most certainly will be going back to TFF next year.
Thanks for reading if you bothered, I wanted to at least talk about it and this is the only place I really have to do it ^^
Glad things worked out and stuff, and glad your "first evur" went well :D