Note to Self - Practice Apathy (Short but heated rant)
6 years ago
Don't mean to be judgmental or nothing, but if someone seems remotely toxic, they probably ARE abominably toxic. This is the simple fact my brain downright refuses to acknowledge and it leads me into one disaster after the other. Even if a person reeks miles away of odious malevolence, my brain will innocently perceive it as a hapless soul in need of compassionate care and of course I'll delude myself to think that I, Mr. Pink Sinqularis McDumbass, hold the key to make a difference in their fight with their inner demons. Here's a news flash for you, Sinqularis, you don't. This world is teeming with bad people but most of them are downright vile and beyond redemption. Doesn't matter what your intentions are, if you touch those volatile freaks, they will explode and unleash hell on your already frail heart. It has always been my philosophy that people should unite and engage in the adversities of life together. Unity makes stronng and all that shit, but you know what, fuck it. It's not gonna be easy but I need to forcibly re-program my mind for the sake of self-protection. If you see someone you don't know who clearly suffers, let them burn. Let their inner demons tear out their intestines and gorge on their guts. With some people, I might even watch and laugh while it happens. Why? Because they would surely do the exact same to me. They don't give two shits about if I succumb to my own woes, and even if they do deign to accept my support, it's not like they will ever return the favor. You may think that I am turning into a wickedly cruel menace myself, and you know what, I'm not gonna argue against that. Ever since the break of the first dawn, people have rudely and ungratefully rejected every friendly gesture I have offered, even ostracized and crucified me for my benevolent intentions. Fair enough, now I know what this dark world consists of and I'm a compliant wolf who knows how to conform to people's desires. If these people want a detestable fiend enveloped by flames who will curse their souls and pour salt into gaping wounds when it hurts the most, that is exactly what they will get. This was the FUCKING last straw and enough is enough.
Sorry about whoever happened to make you feel this way. If you point them out to me I’ll have myself a little chat with them.
Hope you’re doing okay