Hey, I know it can be tough.
It's all good here!

thats awesome! so glad to hear! =D

Alright.
I have a uni assignment and slacking off till the last minute, drawing instead. And watching if my first YCH catches any interest, and if it's the right way to go.
I want to start drawing more commissions, but i'm just not sure what people want and what sells. I like drawing backgrounds, but people usually like their fursona drawn, not their garden, you know? :P

MAN.

not gonna lie- if I had the cash, I would buy that fucking gorgeous YCH you have available in a heartbeat??? I'm a huge sucker for illustrative/atmospheric pieces, where the character is just a part of the image and not so much the focus.

that being said, a lot of people really do want the environmental and illustrative pieces, where their characters are a part of a scene or atmosphere. and I think one of the best things you could do is just. ask as to what people are willing to pay for your work, go off of what you're willing to work, hourly, and then come to a medium between the two.

OR SOMMAT- I still haven't really figured out things, I just work from prompts, hahaha.

thank you for mentioning the ych because its beautiful and i want it lmao

You know, just living life. Waiting for my wife to get out of work to pick her up. Gotta make her dinner so I can be the best I can

that sounds really, really pleasant and the kind of life that I hope that. I can one day live.

cheers to the both of you and I hope dinner is amazing!

Thank you, I have always respected your work. You have a penchant for detail and moods that are incredibly potent, and it’s a pleasure to metaphorically speaking shake your hand

awwww, cheers! I really, really appreciate that.

how about instead of just a handshake, I buy a beer/shot/tea/coffee- whichever you prefer; nothing should ever be temporary.

Coffee is absolutely my drink of choice. I brew it for me and my wife every day and she says I make a damn good cup of coffee (I feel she may be biased however lol)

Beer on the other hand is a wonderful ice breaker, I’d love to hear your stories

niiiice! I do love a good pot of french-pressed coffee; we used to actually roast the beans as well, but it irritates my lungs too much, so just roasted beans, ground up-

-the best thing to wake up to.

I too, agree that beer is a great ice breaker! not sure about you, but. seriously getting tired of everything having to be an IPA these days, hahahaha. I'd kill for more craft European style pilsners.

had a long day/week(/more lol), audit finally came at work at just about the worst time possible so im dreading their report lol. listening to music and sketching trying to make something come out. and anxiously waiting on a reply about a finished commission -^-

oh man, audits kinda really, really suck-
-used to work as an office administrative assistant, audit time was headache time. I'm wishing you the absolute best that things turn out clean and without stress- sending you positive thoughts!

AND WHAT'CHA LISTENING TO? music is <3.

hoping that your client responds soon!

YEAH... i went into one of the rooms they looked at at least, and i found. a ton of things wrong. im super anal though so heres hoping i noticed more than they did?? lmao

and right now im listening to metric, though the nights playlist also included iDKHOW and red hot chili peppers |3;

ALSO IM SURE THEYLL BE HAPPY WITH IT HONESTLY, im happy with it, theres just always the "GAH. TELL ME ITS GOOD" feeling YANNO

oh man! I saw Metric live once, with Billy Talent and Death From Above- really great show, they were the best part of the concert, tbh. Billy Talent was a looot more screechy than I'd like; was a huuuuge fan of their EP and first album, but yeah- Metric is great and so, so underrated. if you ever get the chance to see them live, do so!

but gawd, yeah- one thing I really don't miss about working in an office, is dealing with constant disarray and disorganization and.
and.
and somehow being the only person who cares enough to get things done.

do miss that awesomely atmospheric view though.

AND FINGERS CROSSED FOR YOU.

oh god i LOVE billy talent, they were one of my favourite bands in high school and still one of my go-to jams when i need something high energy and/or angry, im so jealous you saw them live ;^; i dont think ive even heard of death from above though so i'll have to check them out, if they were playing with billy talent and metric i feel like ill like them lmao. i havent even seen anyone live honestly, i almost saw breaking benjamin but ended up bailing because i didnt feel well and then it kinda sucked anyway so NO LOSS, I GUESS

I GUESS I SHOULD SPECIFY i work at a hotel haha i wish i worked at an office, at least then i might stand a chance of being able to sit :| but tbh the constant disarray and disorganization and being the only person who cares enough to get things done is... still all accurate... alas. some things never change

is that view looking out over water or is that something else?? because if you were like, right next to a lake or something, i am SUPER ENVIOUS

oh man, SAME. fucking blasted Billy Talent all day through high school, along with AFI, Hawthrone Heights- so many fond memories, hahahahaha.
-even though I didn't enjoy them live, still followed and bought all of their albums. also had an awesome Standing in the Rain hoodie that uh. ONE OF MY BELOVED AND TREASURED CATS[not at all sarcasm, I miss his fat ass so, so damn much], knocked over a candle and uh. TORCHED IT, hahahaha.

and Death From Above 1979 is pretty fucking angry, hahaha.

but yeah, I haven't seen anyone live recently, coincidentally enough, because I too wasn't feeling well and. One of many missed Matthew Good shows. Dx

also
it sounds like you'd have some crazy af stories to tell/could totally make a sort series of comics on that, hahaha- tbh, it's one of those jobs that has always fascinated me, tbh.

and that view is actually looking over one of the main thoroughfares around the city- Route 90, and the cool thing about that road specifically is that it was designed and constructed during the cold war era, as a nuclear evacuation route to escape the city, because we have a NORAD base here. otherwise, it's just some ditches and boring buildings that faced the east, so some epic as can be sunsets over an otherwise, ugly landscape, hahahaha-

-but it's also proof that anything can be beautiful at any time.

hey ya, Ifeel ya

trying to get back online and reconect after spending 3 years mostly offline lol

you got this! it can be hard, too-

-I can relate in that I've spent the last five years having gone from social to wholly reclusive and withdrawn from everyone; art was just. business, in some ways, it still is, but.
wanna start opening up again.

ALSO.

I love your icon.

i was at a similar spot at 2016 (when i went offline), i've always been kinda reclusive but i was seeing less and less people as we all grew up got married and carried away, than I decided to break out and went to a local meet and made friends with some local furs. It changed a lot of things, new friends, new challenges and relationships to build with lovely people

man, I am legitimately in the same place- so many- so, so many people that were my friends have just. drifted away, for their own completely legitimate reasons.
the fandom is oddly comforting, hell, it's what has introduced me to my fiance and some of the best friends that I know- and such a diverse group of people as well, who contribute to one's life and one's education.

I hope that things continue to grow for you! <333

Oh man, I feel this. I probably look like I just died and dropped off the face of the earth, online-speaking anyway, except that I post art sometimes. A few years ago I feel like I just kind of... withdrew? And I've never been able to come back from that too well. I feel like I've legitimately forgotten how to talk to people and that's quite embarrassing. I've been terrified of logging in to Discord or social media or whatever 'cause I'm worried everybody hates me for being silent, when it's just this kinda... mire of introversion that went too far, and has been a self-perpetuating cycle for the last two years since. I run away from it thinking I'll try again later, and then it's been weeks, months, then a year or two and I wonder what happened. I used to talk to people regularly too! I feel like every time I resume talking with someone, it's always prefaced with an apology for how long I've taken to reply, or to otherwise excuse my prolonged absence. It's a totally unwarranted fear but it clings on anyway.

Anyway I'm not sure where I'm going with that; I guess it just felt familiar and at 3am I tend to ramble, haha. Seriously though I think a lot of people can empathise with the sucking at socialising thing. Most people, I imagine, just wonder if/hope that you're doing okay!

Obviously as an aside I do apologise profusely for not, like, being on Discord at all - it's been one of those cases where 2018 kind of just flew by while I was busy worrying about talking to people as well as other IRL stuff, and it was gone before I knew it, and even now it's already May in this new year and I wonder where it went. It's just, man, I do want to chat n' shit, but... something something internal screaming and social anxiety? I really want to try one of these days to just, like... talk. But yeah I'm super sorry and I haven't purposefully withdrawn or not spoken to you. :'D

it's this odd sensation when.
one feels the need to drop off entirely, socially, and yet the more you try to reintegrate yourself into old habits and feelings, the more you feel incredibly distant-

-numb and detached, especially when the initial feeling of belonging was fragile at best.
part of- naw, a huge reason why I'd jump around a lot with usernames/accounts. that need to hide, withdraw- retreat. so, so easy to put things off[and tbh, it's hella remarkable that I have the close friends at all, because it's never anything against anyone, just- sometimes it's hella hard to reach out]. always apologizing, trying to make amends- but it's those who understand who are the ones who matter.

and I feel bad because I honestly should've reached out more to you, I just. am never really around too much on Discord[it's a resource hog, I tend to keep it disabled, sadly]- but I should make a better attempt/I can do better. I think you're hella cool and everytime I've popped into your streams or read the descriptions of your uploads, I found myself getting so absorbed in your world and your characters.

but I mean, hey- if it's at all easier- g-mail?

Man I suck at replying in a timely manner. But, yeah - all very true, and I can especially understand on the jumping around with usernames/accounts. I feel like I've done that so much that it's definitely been to my detriment in building up any 'following' to my art, but I've always felt so compulsively drawn to withdrawing away every so often, like I was scared if things got too big or became unmanageable (I guess just easily overwhelming with posting as personal as art online, still).

I'm trying to be better about keeping accounts these days - but I feel like my personal tendency to withdraw got a lot worse to compensate for that. :x I find myself shying away from replying to people I know very well, and even family, it's just too easy a trap to fall into. I wish I knew a way around it, but it'll probably just be trying to push myself back out of the comfort zone and converse more.

And nah, don't feel bad, honestly! I'm not on it tremendously often either but it's probably still a better avenue for me than email, haha. I'm probably the worst at replying to those more than anything. ._.

Staying with my Mother for a few days while I wait out the bank fuckery so I can move int a new pace. I can finally set up my big drafting board againj and maybe do somce comics, or what ever. It will be nice to draw on something larger than 9 x 12 sketch pads. Check previous journals about my adventures last year, or How I spent my summer. But so far it's all good, and getting stronger every day.

I have noticed you have gotten a lot more prolific, and that's a good thing. Keep pushing that color wor.

ohhh man, I seriously hope that you get your financial stuff fixed as soon and as comfortably as possible!

and man, legit can't wait to see more of your work! I work on a big drafting board as well; http://glennoar.xepher.net/drawspace.jpg
I very much move the tablet and my keyboard out of the way while working traditionally and have a desk lamp for lighting.
it'll probably be the most expensive part of my move to Sweden, from Canada. there's just no way I can replace an antique oak drafting board[that completely disassembles] or have one rebuilt to the same kind of quality. wouldn't change it for the world and it's the most comfortable setup I've ever had in terms of art.

and I've noticed you posting a lot more work as well! inspiring as always =D

Well it's fixed enough that I have the keys and I can move my stuff inside, I just can't "sleep there' yet, so still staying with mom until the last "i" is dotted, and "t" is crossed.

however, now that i was able to move some of the furniture in, The drafting board is moved into the spare bedroom, a.k.a my office. Like yours mine is an antique, 60 inch, oak Drafting table, and i have missed it in the 12 years I had it in storage. The computer desk is a 180 degree swivel of the office chair, away from the drafting board. (yours is a bit higher quality as you have the metal channel edgings where mine is just planed wood.) Once I can actually live in my own space ( and get my internet hooked up over there) I should be pushing out a lot more art.

Good luck in Sweden! It's a lovely country and my mother loves it' especially in the forested center. Get a car.But I think , aside from the severe introversion, you seem to be in a better situation, now.

Hello I suck at being social too. I'm like, the pure essence of introversion, lol.

sometimes being the "mysterious" introvert is the most comforting thing, hahaha.

Missing you sweetie. You are my everything^^

23 days, cutie!

Yeah, I can dig on that- feel free to drop me a line on Discord, if you'd like.

man, I REALLY SUCK AT DISCORD, BUT.

Aerospiritual#5733

That's okay, even if it's an occasional 'Hey', it's contact.

I know how that goes, though it's never as tough as you have. more like, "I'll go downtown, hit the flea market or the zoo or whatever, just seeing people" and when I go home I'm glad it's over. people can be exhausting even if they never mean ill...

feel better soon, man!

just. gotta collapse, digest the events of the day-

-that being said, going to the flea market and then the zoo sounds like an incredible day and one where the inevitable introversion is one where you digest the positive engagements of the day, smile inwardly, and fold into oneself, embracing the positive experiences. just because something is exhausting does not mean that it isn't rewarding all of the same.

sending you strength and positivity!

let me send you some of mine, so we can reinforce each other. :)