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art career over
6 years ago
so many things have been going wrong for me.
my computer which is dying day by day and coming up with fascinating malfunctions that veterans that have been working and solving problems with computers all of their lives are absolutely awestruck by the technical malfunctions both hardware and software related.
the issues I'm having with my computer are in anathema to all things common sense logical technical physical and repairable.
my Photoshop being a prime example of everything possible that could go wrong going wrong through no action.
the issue that has ruined my career today is immense amount of pen lag that is happening for no reason and only affects the pen tool. when I go to draw a line it only draws 60% of it and the 40% at the very beginning is missing but it only works like this for the brush and things like the eraser work fine. yet again for no reason...
I'm in too much debt and have simply no love for art anymore. every time I've tried to pursue something I've wanted to do it's turned to dust in my mouth and the only thing I'm craving in my mouth is the barrel of a gun right now.
fake laugh, dying inside...
now my career is over and all I've got left is to lie in bed counting the days that I have left before I finally grow a pair and throw myself off a bridge.
(dark humour is how I cope don't get up on me.)
my computer which is dying day by day and coming up with fascinating malfunctions that veterans that have been working and solving problems with computers all of their lives are absolutely awestruck by the technical malfunctions both hardware and software related.
the issues I'm having with my computer are in anathema to all things common sense logical technical physical and repairable.
my Photoshop being a prime example of everything possible that could go wrong going wrong through no action.
the issue that has ruined my career today is immense amount of pen lag that is happening for no reason and only affects the pen tool. when I go to draw a line it only draws 60% of it and the 40% at the very beginning is missing but it only works like this for the brush and things like the eraser work fine. yet again for no reason...
I'm in too much debt and have simply no love for art anymore. every time I've tried to pursue something I've wanted to do it's turned to dust in my mouth and the only thing I'm craving in my mouth is the barrel of a gun right now.
fake laugh, dying inside...
now my career is over and all I've got left is to lie in bed counting the days that I have left before I finally grow a pair and throw myself off a bridge.
(dark humour is how I cope don't get up on me.)
With the influx of activists in the fandom someone somewhere is going to throw a fit whenever anyone has there own beliefs, so ignore those types.
I've got you on watch because your artwork is good, and I hate to see artists giving up or feeling the world is against them.
pretty much in debt to everybody I know so no chance I can get help or would even accept it from there but at least I can save a bit of money by living rent free and some people's heads.
So just gonna throw out a hypothetical question for you, if let's say I got together with my furry friends and a few of us got enough money together for a drawing tablet, yes I know from earlier you would out right refuse charity, and let's say asked for a few commissions as payment, would you except a deal like that?
thing is I just cannot find it within myself to accept something without 100% guarantees that I can deliver plus I can't get anything delivered here since my mail is getting stolen.
p.s. there's no guarantees that if I get a new drawing tablet the new one won't encounter the same problems for no reason...