I feel that
like
real hard.
I've had times like that, too. And it's hard to "come back" from it... Or at least for me it is. I wish I could say I know what to do, or how to relax, but these are things that are a mystery to me.
BUT
EVEN IF I HAVE NO IDEA HOW
I know it's possible to get out of it somehow.
And if you ever want to rant and vent out
I'm here.

Sounds like we're stuck in a similar boat. Its a really crappy boat. But at least it's kind of a boat, so we won't sink just yet!
I'll help you paddle, man. ILU, and you're a really good friend and a precious bean. So, same goes for you. I'm always here to try and send you wholesome vibes whenever you need them and whenever I can.

we're gonna do our best!!
I feel like we might be using a broken paddle, but we'll duct tape the heck out of it and paddle anyway!!

Take your time man! Nobody's going nowhere.
We'll still be here when you get back into it, so there is no need to rush it.
I also wish I had an answer to everything, but please hang in there.
I honestly don't want to have to lose another amazing artist such as yourself... :'(

I'm sorry, it sounds like you've lost someone before. That's really rough. ; _ ;
But I assure you that, even if I'm going absolutely insane or having some really crappy days, I won't let that be the end of me. Sometimes things feel pointless and worthless, but it's only temporary. I'll always find something to smile about. For me, lately, its been my two pet doves. They need me to stick around to take care of them, and there are so many wonderful people in the world that I know and love, and even more I have yet to meet! uwu
I'm just having a rough time, but I'll get through it even if it's difficult, you can count on it!

Thanks for your words though, I appreciate you saying that I can take my time. I think I just need to indeed take time to recover from the chaos and the burn-out. You don't need to have any magical answer for me, just popping by and leaving a little comment is good enough. So thank you, man.

Thats good to hear.

Try something else. Do physical exercise, read a novel, write, cook a complicated dish. You seem pretty burned out from drawing, and although many have art as their jobs, breaks are still necessary. I'd suggest stepping back from it all and refresh.

Thanks for the suggestion, my friend.
For now I'll try to find something else to pass the time.
Drawing is usually how I relax and unwind, but I just keep getting frustrated so I'll find something else. If it's drawing something different, or working on 3D models instead.
I appreciate that you took the time to comment, it means a lot. I felt like due to my inactivity everyone forgot about me or something, so it's really nice to hear a little peep from anyone. I appreciate it.
Make sure you take care of yourself too. I'll try to channel some wholesome memes and cheer up while I work on getting through the burn-out.

Sure thing, hope you find something fun and can get back into the swing of things comfortably.
We'll all be here whenever you're ready.

That's called burn out. You've been working too hard for far too long. You have to shut down & take a break. Give your body time to rest.

I'm a freelancer too, and working from home can easily make it feel like you're at work 24/7, but you need to have a place where you can shut down. Like: I don't answer commission messages on my cellphone, only on my desktop. That way if I'm in bed or playing a game, I'm "off work". Have a space that's your time off space so you can disconnect.

Ohh man the burn out is burned to a crisp. so crispy and burn-y that it's just crumbling away to ashes and wooshes away in the wind.
That's some good advice, about limiting commission work to one work station. For me, I'm constantly making myself available to everyone all the time, even when I'm on trips or during school, so setting a limit would probably help in terms of maintaining sanity and avoiding burn out.

For now, Ill try and set commissions aside. It's hard since my entire life has always been "I need money, money is the source of security, happiness, sanity." and I have a really toxic relationship with money (hoarding it, and not even willing to spend money on food, If I didn't have to eat to survive then I would never buy food.)

Thanks for the input and explanation. I constantly feel like I have to have someone's permission to sit down and relax. If I'm not working at all times or catering to someone else's needs then I'm running around frantically trying to find something to do or someone to help and now I've just spread myself so thin I cant even sleep. So thanks for giving me at least the illusion of permission to rest?

It's been hectic. I'll be okay, physically. But psychologically I am in such a state of chaos subconsciously.
Make sure to take care of yourself too. <3

Yeah, that's right !!! I'm glad you understand. When you're on trips or out with friends, you NEED to shut down. That's what I do to keep myself sane LOL... I don't go out much, so I get stir crazy or whatever it's called..

I hope you feel better soon ! Trust me, if you take breaks, your productivity goes UP !

You know those days where like, you're stuck & only get like, 1 chibi done and you're not even satisfied with it ? In this case, nothing is better than that. Bc if you took that day off, the next day you could be back on full swing !

I feel every line you wrote. Except there's one thing you're real good at. It's art.

The answer to your questions; They don't do anything, they waste their time feeling like you feel but don't have much but an addictive game or drama to keep them going on to the next day.

You have to rest your mind, give yourself the chance to enjoy your art again. Don't do commissions for a bit but set yourself a little challenge of trying to draw something you've not done before or refine points you feel need practice. Just take it easy and find the source of your insecurity about your art.

Good luck and don't forget, we're all watching you because we think you're a good artist, so even if it's not where it should be in your eyes yet, we've the faith you can do it :)

Thanks for your kind words and input.
For now I think I'll set commission work aside and take a much needed break. If I continually struggle with drawing, I'll do some work in 3D modeling since that's something I do on the side now and then. It's a similar feeling of productivity without the frustration of my hands not being at the same skill as what my mind or eyes see.

I hope you're doing good as well. Even when things are really difficult and hard, and I haven't felt this bad in years, we just gotta try and manage until we find that breakthrough. Thank you for your words of inspiration, it helps a lot! ; w ;

So +1 to everything everyone else said.

But if you really still do want to keep drawing anyway, I'd say work on your comic idea. It's okay if it doesn't look good. The first few pages of comics never look good. And if it's your first comic ever, it's doubly so to not look good. So, no pressure there. You can always redo it if you want to later, but really, nobody expects the first comic or the first few chapters of an ongoing personal project comic to look as good as the later/ending chapters.


Working on the comic will give you something to do that is personal, and it will also give you practice so you might be able to work through your art block.

Good luck! I haven't forgotten about you!

Take care of yourself first. No matter what you have us her to support you! Take your time ^^