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Life, the universe, and becoming a snep.
6 years ago
About half a year ago, I started to feel much less wolfy and more feline. I can't pinpoint any specific reason, but I was going through several dark periods combined with a severe bout of existential depression. Who am I? What is my purpose here? Why do I even bother waking up? Even writing this, I'm still adrift with no firm ground beneath my worn paws. In the sky above, only a few stars guide my way through the thick, muddy underbrush.
Somewhere during this turmoil, I'd changed, became even more aloof and withdrawn, and felt that my wolf side no longer represented my alter ego.
I'd always told myself, if I had a pet, I'd get a cat. But that's a responsibility I dare not take on at this time in life. But what if I was a cat? A big cat. Something not too big yet fluffy, with a striking pattern and a calm demeanour. After reading up on sneps I was sold. Part of the switch is to represent a step forward into the future. Another is to explore what I've never explored over all this years in the fandom - to properly develop a fursona as a character. Exploration, not just an anthro version of me. Did I mention they have long, luxurious tails?
I think during Confuzzled I've told most I've met of my species change, and I apologize if I did not. Some have expressed surprise at the change, but I think it's time I stopped being scared and just try. Failure is a necessity of invention, or perhaps... re-invention.
For the next two months I'm _mostly_ off work. It's not healthy for my bank account, but I think it will be a good time to reflect on the past, and figure out what I want in the future.
As for my name... well I'm not changing that. I gave it some thought, and decided, nope, Gallen still fits me. Just like Curzon became Jadzia, inside, they're still Dax. Ok so maybe it's not the best analogy, just the best I can come up while I'm procrastinating from rearranging my entire room lol.
I'm getting a new badge done by the art maestro
bhavfox, and once I'm back at work I'll look into getting some refs done. I see several facets of myself, one snep that's an alter-ego to my muggle self, another where I envison myself in a better future, another in a dystopian era, and several others as I sort though exactly what I need from life.
I'm looking forward to Confuzzled 2020. Meowr good reader. Meowr. 42
Somewhere during this turmoil, I'd changed, became even more aloof and withdrawn, and felt that my wolf side no longer represented my alter ego.
I'd always told myself, if I had a pet, I'd get a cat. But that's a responsibility I dare not take on at this time in life. But what if I was a cat? A big cat. Something not too big yet fluffy, with a striking pattern and a calm demeanour. After reading up on sneps I was sold. Part of the switch is to represent a step forward into the future. Another is to explore what I've never explored over all this years in the fandom - to properly develop a fursona as a character. Exploration, not just an anthro version of me. Did I mention they have long, luxurious tails?
I think during Confuzzled I've told most I've met of my species change, and I apologize if I did not. Some have expressed surprise at the change, but I think it's time I stopped being scared and just try. Failure is a necessity of invention, or perhaps... re-invention.
For the next two months I'm _mostly_ off work. It's not healthy for my bank account, but I think it will be a good time to reflect on the past, and figure out what I want in the future.
As for my name... well I'm not changing that. I gave it some thought, and decided, nope, Gallen still fits me. Just like Curzon became Jadzia, inside, they're still Dax. Ok so maybe it's not the best analogy, just the best I can come up while I'm procrastinating from rearranging my entire room lol.
I'm getting a new badge done by the art maestro
bhavfox, and once I'm back at work I'll look into getting some refs done. I see several facets of myself, one snep that's an alter-ego to my muggle self, another where I envison myself in a better future, another in a dystopian era, and several others as I sort though exactly what I need from life.I'm looking forward to Confuzzled 2020. Meowr good reader. Meowr. 42
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