I got the job, i like the job, its simple, its easy, it pays enough for what it is, i like it, i'd even go on to say i love it...but as i do the numbers and i try to get my motorcycle therapy back up and running i realize...i cant get an 1199 again. "So? Whats the big deal?" "I dont know...just the thought of not being able to get my true love back is just it hurts, it legit makes me wanna cry when i think about it, that i have to 'cheap out' and get a jap bike. And there isnt anything wrong with jap bikes in all honesty they've really stepped up there game these last few years but they arent an 1199. Even though its 6 years old at this point i still think its the best damn bike out there. The looks, the feel, the smell, the sound, the joy of riding it...It seriously makes me wanna cry thinking that i'll almost never have the chance to get that type of bike again...And the longer it takes me to get a bike like that the less and less i'll be able to get a bike like the 1199, even the V4 is just...bleh you know? there is something off about it, i dont know what it is, the 1299 is also just kinda meh, in fact in a straight line up to 150 the 1199 is actually faster then both of them, they make so much power and are so light its hard for them to put the power down in an efficient manor, the 1199 was the best and fastest production bike back in its day and in some cases still is even faster then these newer bikes because it was just able to put the power down so god damn well. They dont come up for sale around here either, because they are that fucking good." "But its expensive to buy!" "Not really, the base model duck to the base model jap, with similar capabilities is only a few grand, which is legit like $20-30 more a month on the actual payment side, i can afford the payments, the insurance, the gas, but not the maintenance my commute is over 100 miles let alone what i'd do on a week end, and just commuting i do 25,000 miles a year thats almost two major services on the 1199-1299-V4 which is basically 800-1800 every six months, butt the fact that i'd be spending legit every cent i owned after rent, taxes and food, i'd have no money left over to save for said service...and it hurts, badly, my soul aches, it longs for that love again that feel, that smell, that sound, the joy of riding..."

Right now im currently riding my friends ninja 300 and i appreciate that he's letting me but every morning mon-fir, im just like. "Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" because i have to pin that thing for 100miles a day and its just not fun, its...basic granted i'd far prefer the 300 over sitting on the back of his R6 for those 100 miles but still right now riding is just a means to get from point A to point B and i dont like that, it causes more pain then relief more sadness in the realization i'd have to make double what i do now, or at least four more mons an hour to be able to afford my baby again and thats such a far and mother fucker of a bridge to get there... its like the title says, soul crushing because im not getting any younger and im on my feet for 12-14 hours a day and i just wont be able to keep this up forever let alone be able to do it long enough for such a thing as to own a bike like the 1199 again...