... life sucks...

non stop from last week... step brother (whose alcoholic and drug attic, just yellin and threatening to kill cause "we take away his freedom" "because daddy isnt giving him money so he can go out drinking..." yet dad's wallet seemed to have "disappeared" the same night he took off,
that was last saturday now...
though yesturday we got a call from some guy.. saying the kid was in some rehab place and getting better, but they needed some money to cover some bills... HA right... dad was gonna pay but this morning one of our employees turned out was with him last night- both got high and our formen literally kicked him off the property, now the employee said unless we give him his latest check he'll bring the sheriff over! go ahead pal!they already been here almost every other night for the last 3 weeks...
FYI- the "kid" step brother, he's 28 yet acts like he's 16, cause he gets to do whatever he wants...

heck, dad said I'm more of a son to him then his actual son! hmm... idk.. I just need to get out of this place.. getting heartaches from stress and high blood pressure, my collateral is bad,
vitemin D and white cell count is REALLY low...
but... I do have almost 2 thousand saved which is nothing to live on but... tis a start right?
one day- I'll be able to move on my own again, maybe this time get my GF and live where no one knows me. fresh start.

I only moved back home to help care for my grandma, sad thing is... I'm glad she's gone so she dont have to deal with this too.. though now its just me and my mom


I may deleted this later if anyone reads this or not... just one of the many many many letters I write just to get stuff off my chest...
I normally just write it up in word program then delete it without anyone seeing it... but meh