And a new chapter begins...
6 years ago
A Ravens Writing Desk
So, I don’t really know where to begin this. I am mainly writing this because I just need a place to vent a little, but even then I don’ really know what’s going on so maybe its silly to do. To begin, I got kicked out of my house. To make an exceedingly long story short, I had a ptsd episode, I started going to therapy, I didn’t get better fast enough, so they decided I was to much drama to keep around and asked me to leave. That was two and a half weeks ago. My entire life has been turned upside down, I spent the first night sleeping in my car, which was fun said no one ever. A guy actually tried to get into it while I was in there. Luckily the next day some local friends offered me a couch. It’s been a decade since I had to couchsurf. After I left the people I called family just cut all contact, and I think one of the things that hurts the most is they always told me that no matter what we would overcome anything together. I have vented to others about stuff, and I have worked out a lot on my own. The main thing I am doing now is working on me. I am keeping up with the therapy and work, I have started writing again, and I got a book called “Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain” so hopefully I will be able to art like I have always wanted to. Other then that all of my tools and things are at the other house. They don’t want to see me or talk to me so I can’t get anything. So my artistic outlets are a little cut off besides drawing and writing. I am feeling stronger now that my episode is over, and it is so strange because I haven’t had an episode in about a decade. I keep thinking I should do something more, but what more can I do, I make enough money for gas and ramen so I can’t exactly do anything else. I feel trapped and yet free at the same time. I’m not going to go into the details of what triggered me because unlike other parties, I am not going to talk bad about people behind their backs. And that’s my little update for today, now that I have nothing taking up my time as much, you may even see me more often on here. Though I may reserve my writing till its done, the concept is kind of cool, so I kind of want to get published if I can. I hope everyone else is doing good and anything you are going though, know you can do it, even if it sucks. That’s the way I’m looking at it.