While I do feel better compared to weeks ago... I'm not fully recovered yet and I do need help on that.

So... To resume the situation... I did bad things before and I regretted what I've done, I even apologized to it. I took a break from it, then, came back, hopefully things will be better from now on. But... for some reasons, I feel... quite uneasy about being around some places sometimes.
And so, I'm thinking about things like: "Did they forgive me?" or "Do they still hate me after what I've done even after I apologized?"
Yeah... It's been haunting me lately. I'm not sure how I can explain this. But I think I'm being paranoiac right now, I believed I even had an unpleasant dream about it last night. I just hope I can undo the damage I caused before and redeem myself... Someday...

Another problem I'm having right now... Well, I need to resurrect my mood about becoming a growing macro Bulbasaur once again. Last time, I insisted way too much with my desires to get some pics about it. Mainly because I was... desperated at that time... And that wasn't a good thing to do, I admit... Because of that, I decided to punish myself for being bad about it... I removed a journal I wrote weeks ago, I even cancelled a few commissions I was waiting for as well. I had the need to disappear, to be forgotten... But thanks to some people, they helped me to recover and I'm grateful for that. I started to gain back my will to become back a growing macro Bulbasaur once again but it's not fully recovered yet. I don't mind getting some more help for that actually. I also need to get a new pic about it, hopefully I'll find someone for that.

Anyway... Hopefully I'll be able to solve thoses problems ASAP. I'm tired to bring my problems in a place like here again... and again... *Sigh.*

On a positive thought... I also discovered a fun app about macro rampaging monsters on my phone. I also started to create levels in Super Mario Maker 2 as well, I'll write a journal about it, sharing my new levels someday but not today. ^^