Not the funnest time!! (VENT)
6 years ago
Hey guys..
I just really really need to get this out, i am so run down right now, i have a full body skin infection (i suffer from sever Atopic excema) and i have been experiencing extreme bouts of dizziness and have been puking.
I have been looking after pup for just over a month now and te stress is getting to me, others in the house are either disabled or too tired to be able to help out with him and i have fully taken him on myself.
The pup has been sick, and has had the poops since day one, and had many meds and recently has had about of blood in his stool, i rushed him to vet he is now on antibiotics...
Im just so stressed, feels like i am on my own with it all and on top of that im so sick.
Im on antibiotics and feel so bad....
I needed to have worked yesterday and today, but things came up with pup and i pretty much passed out this afternoon after a coughing fit..
I just feel so alone, and depressed....nothign is going right and im just fed up.
I so badly wanted this puppy but i thought i would get some help and so far...i have been the only one busting my ass.
I am disabled too, i suffer from muscle pains and take strong painkillers....................
Im sorry to my commissioners still waiting i hope to get on right tomorrow...im just so sick rn..
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Just take your time. No use overworking yourself.
Now, more recently. 3 years ago I found a dream breeder for my labrador. I waited almost a year to get a pup and I was SO excited. He was going to be perfect, he was going to be my best friend and we were gonna ride off into the sunset. I even read a book on how to raise the perfect puppy. Well I tell you day 1 he had 3 accidents in the house and my little dream got shattered pretty quick. I got the puppy blues something fierce, I felt guilty that I even "hated" him at times. Raising a puppy is a LOT of work. To make it even harder when he was 4 months old I finally started walking him since he had his full rounds of vaccines and he got attacked on our walk a few days later. I had to take him to a professional trainer to get him over his intense fear of strangers and unfamiliar places. He's been very socially awkward ever since. But hey, we're getting there! Very slowly, but he's becoming such a great dog and I love him so much.
Also, his stool has NEVER been normal so I'm not sure what's up with that either. I've tried so many things and I've come up empty so far. He'll be going in for a wellness check in a few months so I'll ask the vet for any more suggestions. I hope you can get your pup's situation figured out, too!
Puppies are tonssss of work. We never really realize that until we actually adopt one. I know being sick yourself doesn't help either :( I'm really sorry. But do know that things will get better! It's a tiring process but the adult dog you get out of it makes it all so worth it. I never thought I'd get to the stage where my dog would just chill and I wouldn't have to watch him every 2 seconds. But here we are! Every day it gets better. Keep your chin up! and of course take the time you need to relax and get your health taken care of first. <3
I super crazy hope you get some help.
I'm sending all the good vibes I can, I know we can't help with the puppy or your work, but if there's Anything just ask. There are a lot of people who care about you and just want your best <3
It's ok to focus on yourself, it's ok to be sick and it's ok to not know.