Today is by far the worst day i have ever had to deal with. I had to put my Kitty smokey down today because of a Urinary blockage that was not ever expected, but it had caused him to have issues bad enough they could not operate on him in time to save him.

And so i lost the last living emotional support i have had in my life today. He was a sweet and loving kitty when we wanted to be, but also playful and always getting into trouble from time to time as cats do.He was my world even when he was bad and I so loved him dearly, both the good times and the bad ones, he was my cuddly rock.

My heart is broken today and i lost my only key to happiness, and it hurts so much. I've lost my sister near Xmas of 2017, Mother in April 2018, and now Smokey today july 9th 2019. And what Pisses me off greatly is i couldn't afford to even have him cremated to be able to have him with me where ever i would move too, but now have to bury him in a Place I l know assholes will dig him up and ruin his burial site. I couldn't Afford to pay out $400 just to have him with me, And it's killing me I'll never be able to take him with me when i leave here.

Ge was my furry guardian angel in my life and I'll never be able to have him with me in any form. Guess i'm not suppose to be able to do that and forever leave the pets i love behind and never have near my heart.