In Relative comfort. the swelling is down enough I don't feel like I am sitting on a lump. It is just over 6 weeks and healing is coming along.
Fealing is coming back witch is a good thing but Post Op therapy is rapidly losing its appeal as things hurt now during the sessions that did not before. One day at a time. I am supposed to be back at work in 3 weeks. I will leave that open for now at least as long as I have any remaining healing to do where I sit. [The sitting can compromise the circulation and therefore the healing].

On another note, I have been aware on multiple levels of a part of me/my anatomy every waking hour for 5 weeks. As I am aware of that, I am also ... it is not exactly intrusive but never far from consciousness ... Friends tell me that they have never seen me more relaxed. After each step in this process, I feel more comfortable in my skin.

Two months ago I could not imagine being any more comfortable with me. five years ago I was just learning to like me. Two months ago I could remember being him, now I still remember him and his life, but I can't get any handle on what it was like to be him. Aside from working to understand a character I may be working on I think I can leave it that way.