I looked back at my past journals before making this one and I'm realizing that summers aren't too kind to me LMAO
IT'S ALWAYS JUNE & JULY THAT KICKS ME IN THE SHINS!!!

Anywho, I just wanted to be transparent with you guys for a little bit and let you all know what's going on with me.

Around April we started therapy. And at first it was going really well, I did felt better for awhile.
But then we had to start trauma therapy.
I've been breaking down a lot recently and while it's good that I'm finally processing my trauma, it does leave me very physically and emotionally drained.
My energy would only be enough for maybe a little bit of work at a time (not as much as I was used to doing..)

It probably doesn't seem like I slowed down in posting but I have been postponing my commission openings and being quiet in terms of the Telegram group and such.
I've been trying to power through it but it has been taking a toll especially as of late.

And I can't even enjoy the fact that something VERY GOOD is about to happen to us soon.
Because that good thing will require a bit more money at first and while we can handle it even on our budget now
it makes me feel awful that I'm feeling this way. Because it's like I can't work to provide for us....

I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm sorry for being a bit flaky and slow on art owed.
And I'm also sorry if I seemed stand offish or quiet.
I'm going to spend my time this late summer & autumn, catching up on the stuff I have right now.
And getting better
Commissions will be closed indefinitely, but if I get to a good place I'll definitely update you guys here.


Thank you & I hope you guys understand ♡