Lately over the pass couple months I’ve been trying to overcome a serious case of depression. At first I thought I was just being over dramatic about my circumstances but lately it’s been getting to me a lot worse. I’m not eating much any more and I’m constantly waking up in the middle of the night in tears. I came to the realization that I’ve been alone for far to long. I can’t stand how big my bed feels. I hate how empty my apartment sounds. I’m tired of eating alone. Now more than ever I wish I had someone to hold me and be there for me. I’ve tried putting myself out there and over come my social anxiety but every time it ends the same. People giving one or two word responses. Some just stop responding to me, not even giving me the time of day to tell me they aren’t interested. Every day now feels like a struggle to wake up and keep pushing forward with a smile on my face. I’m getting scared about the road I’m heading down. I just wish someone, anyone would tell me I matter or that they care. Cause right now it feels like no one does at all