It’s already been 5 years since Robin Williams’s death and it really bring a lot of emotions for a lot of us. It breaks my heart to see how painful and scary severe depression really is, and seeing a very funny guy who we all seen as kids die from such a sad way makes me cry almost. Depression is not a joke, I go through severe depression sometimes and I really feel like I can not go further. What’s making me continue is my family, friends and this community. These past twelve months for me have been very difficult, losing my close cousin to Stage 4 cancer, having my brother move far away due to rehabilitation for heroin, barely get in contact with him, suffering a kidney stone last July, and always alone in real life. I hated myself a lot and I still look at myself as a loser and I still feel I am haunted from my past as a kid. I want to move on but sometimes it is tough but I’m here. There have been some Good things that have happened to me such as getting promoted to full-time at my job, dumping an asshole partner (only in social media), and getting the help I needed from this community and my family.

I pray for not only Robin’s family but also to anybody who is suffering through depression, you are loved and you are stronger.