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6 years ago
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This one...is kinda..goodish? In a way.
I've taken back to doing art again, so that is helping my stress levels become more even. Which I'm thankful for beyond belief.
Dad had been in the hospital again for a week, a week or so ago. He'd gone in on a Sunday and didn't get released till a Thursday I believe. (Because if he was still in on Friday, I was gonna go see him.)
He had something called Toxic Blood, which I guess is meaning he was Septic, which is caused from an infection somewhere in the body going rampant. He's home and I believe on medication for it to help kill off the infection.
I'm still playing WoW and will openly say I do not have a Main now.
I used to have a main a while back, which had been Talli. I loved her and I still do. But after...a friend basically upped and left me on the rp...I've fallen from playing her as much as I used to. I feel a broken connection with her after said friend fucked it up for me.
And well...
I dont know how well to say this. But the happiness I thought I found with someone....I broke off. Maybe its a break, maybe its just gonna stay that we are friends. I'm hurting too much to keep of saying we were boyfriend and girlfriend since I never felt like one. So...I'm now in the process of trying to heal myself mentally and emotionally. Cuz I was in a bad place for a month on this.
Most my friends were unaware just how messed up this made me. Because I was doing my hardest to hide it.
Hell its still hurting me because I dont think they understood the mental games it played with me on several aspects.
So yeah. I'm broken because of this. And it hurts.
Outside that, I now have 3 new sona's. Vexi, a wolf. Calli,a maned wolf, and Lexi, a coyote. Lexi will get a redesign, cuz I dont like that I used Cas's colors on her. Same with Calli. I wanna tone her colors down a bit. If I can.
I've taken back to doing art again, so that is helping my stress levels become more even. Which I'm thankful for beyond belief.
Dad had been in the hospital again for a week, a week or so ago. He'd gone in on a Sunday and didn't get released till a Thursday I believe. (Because if he was still in on Friday, I was gonna go see him.)
He had something called Toxic Blood, which I guess is meaning he was Septic, which is caused from an infection somewhere in the body going rampant. He's home and I believe on medication for it to help kill off the infection.
I'm still playing WoW and will openly say I do not have a Main now.
I used to have a main a while back, which had been Talli. I loved her and I still do. But after...a friend basically upped and left me on the rp...I've fallen from playing her as much as I used to. I feel a broken connection with her after said friend fucked it up for me.
And well...
I dont know how well to say this. But the happiness I thought I found with someone....I broke off. Maybe its a break, maybe its just gonna stay that we are friends. I'm hurting too much to keep of saying we were boyfriend and girlfriend since I never felt like one. So...I'm now in the process of trying to heal myself mentally and emotionally. Cuz I was in a bad place for a month on this.
Most my friends were unaware just how messed up this made me. Because I was doing my hardest to hide it.
Hell its still hurting me because I dont think they understood the mental games it played with me on several aspects.
So yeah. I'm broken because of this. And it hurts.
Outside that, I now have 3 new sona's. Vexi, a wolf. Calli,a maned wolf, and Lexi, a coyote. Lexi will get a redesign, cuz I dont like that I used Cas's colors on her. Same with Calli. I wanna tone her colors down a bit. If I can.
oh i can feel ya there, i have had people ruin a character for me before in rp's n such >> and sometimes if they were used a lot when doing stuff with a certain friend it... really cuts when they leave and you just cant bring yourself to do stuff with said character anymore ^^" it hurts :c sorry bud *hug*
oh buddyyyy, i am very sorry and have felt your position before, not feeling you were bf/gf etc... oh dear that really sucks, i am very sorry it happened to ya :c *hug*
sorry for ya feeling broken, if ya wish, ya may vent or whatever ya desire, i hope i can listen well for ya <3
and i like your sonas, they are very nice :3 <3
you are still a great artist bud, do keep it up, you're also a great friend who deserves better than those foul people <3
I'm trying so hard to reconnect with her though, but it still sucks x.x
Yeah...in that case I kinda knew it was coming. He's basically stopped talking to me, so I guess he had not plans to fix it either. Cuz he completely cut me off.
I will end up rebuilding myself. It will just take time.
Thank you! Vexi is my personal favorite right now :D *sends all the hugs*
Thanks Nat. I really needed that.
yeah, i feel ya there, one character of mine i had a similar thing happen with was Rain (along with a few others) often rp'd with them asa character with this one person but things went south and meep, long story from there ^^" so yeah, i feel ya bud and sorry to hear of it :c
You are strong cas, you will be able to move on, ya deserve better than them who cut ya off n all. you'll find someone better :3
wishing ya well on this quest of rebuilding bud *big hugs*
and ya welcomes! :D and i see ^^ it's a very nice design too so it's all the more nice :3 <3 *all the hugs*
you're very much welcome bud, take care, stay strong, ya got this. you're a strong floof ^^ <3