... or broken hearts....

Things have been on a steady trail downhill.... I've been living in self-hatred for my whole life, wondering when I'll ever be loved ever again.... or if I will ever be recognized by anybody.... as someone worthy of love.... Because of everything that has happened to me.... I feel like the world should burn.... Either that.... or I shouldn't be alive right now.... I feel like all I am is just someone to make suffer in the worst way possible while others think that I'm not effected while I am.... Some think that I'm just their sex toy to use and abuse.... Or some may just lie to me and think it's okay or what have you.... Or maybe some just spread corruption and toxicity and lies about me.... so forth..... But..... I need to know.....

What am I to you....?