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Two weeks....
6 years ago
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Two week's have past since that faithful day when our world was turned upside down and every bit of logic stripped from it's face.
Though I still find myself peaking from the shadows that once we're, at least now the light doesn't seem to have quite the same sting as it once did.
I still find myself tearful and blue, longing for a forgotten message or a hint that this is all a dream and the dreamer will soon awaken once more. But alas the harsh and brutal sting of reality set's in one more time as I realize the dreamer is awake.
Reality is a cold hearted Beast. It does not feel the dragging hands of time, nor does it give sorrow for those it has left behind in it's wake.
Though my heart still beats, sometimes against my own will....I realize what has come to past and understand that like time itself, I must continue to move forward.... And hold That which is sacred to me close to my beating heart. For as long as this dragon's heart continues to beat, so too shall the memory of the one who was loved so, but lost to time.
Though I still find myself peaking from the shadows that once we're, at least now the light doesn't seem to have quite the same sting as it once did.
I still find myself tearful and blue, longing for a forgotten message or a hint that this is all a dream and the dreamer will soon awaken once more. But alas the harsh and brutal sting of reality set's in one more time as I realize the dreamer is awake.
Reality is a cold hearted Beast. It does not feel the dragging hands of time, nor does it give sorrow for those it has left behind in it's wake.
Though my heart still beats, sometimes against my own will....I realize what has come to past and understand that like time itself, I must continue to move forward.... And hold That which is sacred to me close to my beating heart. For as long as this dragon's heart continues to beat, so too shall the memory of the one who was loved so, but lost to time.
You say I have friends here....name one. No one reached out to me when this happened......I reached out to everyone that I knew she was close too and tried to help comfort them. Yet only One has returned that favor. Of the Hundreds of people I watch and the fifty or so who watch me, Only one reached out to me.
Everyone seems to have just Moved on...as if she didn't even exist....
I wonder would it be the same for me? If I pulled the plug now, who would even look twice? "Oh some stupid dragon offer himself, Good riddens there's too many of them around anyway and nobody likes them. Oh, he knew that Rabbit....what was her name again?"
I reached out to those who don't even know me and one who Fucking Hates me simply because I'm a Forsaken Dragon!
But I don't blame her, No One said a word to her until a Week had passed and she happened to read it in someone's journal.
So tell me Megan, Who are these Friends you mentioned that are here for the suffering draggy? My life is an Emotional Hell right now!
I suffer silently in hopes that others can Heal....
Bunny Loved you ya'know.... In one of our many conversations long ago she told me "if anything should happen to me, Promise me you will check in on Megan and make certain she's doing well."
I promised....and I've kept my promise as this stupid F-ed Dragon keeps all of his promises.
I'm sorry.... I'm probably being mean....bit Damn it she was Somebody! And it's just not Fair that the world moved on without her in it! I'm sorry......for everything. I'll just go back to my home now....I can't see through the tears to write anymore..
I've not taken Bunny's passing well either I'm afraid....my mind is a mess, the pain and tears just won't stop!
I will note you..... please forgive me.
You are Absolutely right my friend!
I just wish there were something to make the pain more tolerable is all.
And don't you ever Change!
I'll try not to change, but you don't change either!
Sis, Crazy like mine never changes...it just becomes more fun to watch!
Thank you!
Thank you my Friend. You may not have been there then, But you are here now...and That means a Lot to me!
Bunny was So Close to me.....and the pain runs so deep.
I do try to share the love and I know in time the pain will slowly grow less....or at least I hope it will. But I fear the wounds will never mend my friend.