What happened?

I mean for example "oh this guy is been inactive for a month is he ok? Is he alive??" Or something like that because i will be gone for half year

I'm sorry.

Well nothing cant be done seeya until next year if i still alive

??? what, why

Sorry i really sorry i always though some comissioner could be friend but i was wrong i know when i reject by people

I'm sorry, I'm fricking busy most of the time and I'm giving more and more of myself to people in need. I hardly have time for myself.

Hmm are you a married mad or taking care of a family if that the case dont worry i understand the hard way of living to take of someone and i not even married i just a single boy

Single man, taking care of my grandma and trying to talk to all of my friends. Trying to emotionally support them while working weekends in a factory, constantly being bitched at by my supervisor. I'm just so tired.

well sadly that's the case for most people really.
I still do check every now and again.

All right but a least you coul do a shout of "are you still alive??" Because i will be gone for the rest of the year

True. though that said a lot of people do take hiatus and so on and most of the time people just need their space so i try not to ask.

that said i do occasionally visit your chat group so that counts. ?

According to one of the few friends i have contact he say my discord channel is like a ghost town all silent nothing so is the proof most of you guys never care for me

Well it is sadly true that nothing moves much in your discord channel.

I suppose it works both ways. I tend to be actively chatting with people who actively chat with me.
If you like I can go PM you on discord to get it going :)


Also was assuming your internet was still out

aw man

im really sorry dude. ive been so busy physically and emotionally

I understand though try to clear your mind people dont always act as you think look at me for example

well. im always here for you.

both here and on discord to support you anyway i can

Sorry to hear that, can be disappointing

Agreed . . . . .

aww make me regret not buying more YCH commissions perhaps I should have made more wise purchases every month. also don't feel good pushing work to struggling individual.

Umm this not about the ych . . . Ah whatever

it's if you quit painting forever. or are you going to other website and only publish your work there?

Umm have you read the last journal before this one?

the previous journal was about no internet but I think you mean the journal about when you where thinking about joining patreon or twitter. yes I have read them.

He will come back eventualy just give him some cheer...
Won't hurt to write PM sometimes, right?

If they dint write nothing in the whole month i was gone they will forget i even exist in the rest of the year

I'm so sorry to hear that, Soma

Right right . . . Litle shout of "are you ok" or a least "are you still alive" would have been better

yip yap?

mostly it's because I am not even remotly sure what I can even begin to do to help

You could a least put a small shout od "hey are you still here" or a least "hey are you still alive" because i will be gone for the rest of the year

I mean we can talk maybe but we never really did so much before everything happened

I care, as well as everyone else up here so that’s more then 1%

Sorry if i sound harsh i know i tend to watch people and fav their works or art they comission wihout saying a word but you never asked how i am or if everything is ok with me well i never asked either so we even

Some of us are busy, for me School is rough while balancing my home life of baby sitting my siblings since they have no one else to turn to so I’m on call to do that and school as well as looking for a job too, but I’m not gonna forget about you so I wonder if you’re still doing ok

I surviving in this country like always the thing is stuff getting more and complicated to get in this case my internet dont know when is come back

Well I wish you the best of luck buddy, we’re here for ya

I may be silent but I'm always open for talking to more people
You're not alone man, you have us and others in your discord server

Yeah but acording to a friend the server become like a ghost tonw all silent

No se me da muy bien animar a la gente, pero si te apetece hablar de lo que quieras, estamos dispuestos a escuchar, sólo llamanos. Ánimo.

Si aun pudiera estar en contacto con la gente aqui no hubiera puesto este journal lo que me molesta es que eh estado desaparecido por un mes y nadie dice nada se que no existo para la mayoria de personas pero joder al menos un shout de si estoy bien o de preocupacion hubiera sido bueno ahora que no voy a estar aqui por el resto del ano pues hmp ya no se que pensar

Que la gente desaparezca por largos periodos de tiempo es algo que suelo ver con frecuencia, y terminan volviendo ya sea por una razón u otra. Suelo dejar espacio a la gente, ya que a menudo son problemas en los que no debes meterte. Si te soy sincero, las veces que he conocido a alguien que reconozca abiertamente que necesita atención o que se preocupen por ella las puedo contar con los dedos de mi mano, siempre ha sido lo opuesto "Déjame en paz" o "No es problema tuyo" son frases muy típicas que se suelen decir para mentener el orgullo propio y para que esta ayuda no sea recibida como una amenaza a la propia competitividad del individuo. Imagino que tienes tus razones para estar molesto e incluso dudar del mensaje, y no puedo rebatirlo, ya que las palabras se las lleva el viento y cómo más credibilidad se tiene es con acciones. No voy a aburrirte con más discursos, asi que procuraré ser más espabilado.

Sin problemas te entendi bien aunque si te digo me molesto un poco que nadie dijera nada aqui si no dijieron nada en un mes no me queiro imaginar cuanto polvo va a agarrar mi cuenta el resto del ano

Look if you didn't say this no one would know but you posted it so people get your idea...

Your a good person, don't leave!

I not leaving art i say i wont be around for the rest of the year for highter problems what i kinda mad about if no one ever say if i ok or a least are you still alive now i see who were my true friends

I always check on you hun

Dont worry you one of the few people that really care i saw your shout of discord on my gmail but i cant answer then and if you wondering how i answering this is because my relic of blackberry can a least open fa

Eh? What happened?

Well what happen is "oh this guy is still alive?? His account been inactive for a whole month and his discord channel to" or something like that well i guess you wont miss me for the rest of the year that i will be gone

To be fair, when I do give you a beep, you say you've been busy, and well...I have to do stuff too, not being too active myself so...yeah...sorry about that

Basically several people being busy and not too active to begin with leads to that...

Yeah i been thiking about and i got that

Sorry again man

I'm among newest watchers on your list, so I am very confused as to what's going on

Well i will explain seems i tend to confuse people wiht me words the thing is i been inactive for a whole month here and in my discord but none of the people that know me are concerned about that seems dont even care about what happen to me

Well, in any case, I can only comment when I have the time, and even then, I try to limit my commentary to avoid annoying you.

I don't usually check on people, I work long and have little time to do anything, so, I'm not really active myself.
And I usually don't even check on other people, too - yet I still consider them friends if I get along with them nicely. It's not about checking in for me, it's about being there when they need help, and that's what counts for me.

you okay? we need to talk, dunno what happened but hope you ok