That's the answer I gave everyone who asked me how I was doing. Not good but not bad just fine. A simple answer for a simple question. Even my grandmother notice saying that it seems like nothing ever bother me. The truth was that I just good at not letting it show. Even now I hide how crapy thing are or revealing how I feel about myself. There are times when I just laying down in bed thinking and out of nowhere I start thinking about stuff for the past and in up upsetting myself. Sometimes when I'm upset or stress out I just in up blocking people around me out, then went i feel things are going well I'll try to get back normal then shit hits the fan and I'm back to square one. There times i feel bad about myself, my art isn't even good because nobody likes it and it barely looks good compares to others. Sometimes I feel like I'm a huge problem of people and the only reason why there nice to me is because they sorry for me. I'll look at pictures of fursona and think"wow, I wish I could be like him" or just looking at some of the stuff here on FA and wanna try but I feel like I'll just be made fun of for doing so. The last couple of months been kinda hard. Sorry for all this stuff. I think I'm gonna go back to sleep.