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9-17-2019 *sipping tea*
6 years ago
Just figured I'd say something before heading off soonish, as my first day on new job starts soon. Plus I need to relax a little.
Not too worried about the job though.
And I resolved some past issues thankfully, in a way that seems nearly miraculous for how life's been for the past decade.
Just been feeling lonely again.
It's not that I lack for people to talk to. And I'm glad to have another place for some noise again that has activity (and broader interests, ironic that at one point I looked around for pony servers and now I'd missed the furry classics.) And another place to pop some of my art around too whenever I actually finish something. And talk to some old friends I haven't in a long time; glad to hear they've been doing decent.
Just that I've been missing some people who used to be around alot, but now barely. Sometimes they send a message or two and pop in for a token night before being gone again for weeks on end, sometimes almost a month (or what feels like one.) I feel it often, and my other friends do too.
I was hoping to spend some more time with them before I'd have less time due to work (at least it's work in this case as opposed to running dry of funds which was nearing, but still.)
It was part of why I was just so happy to see everyone together again a month ago on a game we used to play alot. At least for a short timespan. Then...this again.
A coldness in our little chatroom.
*sighs* That aside...
Also been thinking a little more on...self. Who I am, and what I wish to do with my casing so to speak; physically this time, not my usual questioning of my own personality. Nothing particular stands out though. Just a bit torn between fantasy, ideals...and wondering if I could handle the time and resources needed for changes if desired.
Why can't we have modification potions/spells in real life? I want to change MMOs already, I don't care if the graphics are "worse" and if "its for casuals" >:(.
I do have most of the inking done on my recent project! Gotta do some cleaning on that and then...COLORING! :)
I'll probably be fine.
But I could be better, at least tonight...
Time to sleep now.
Not too worried about the job though.
And I resolved some past issues thankfully, in a way that seems nearly miraculous for how life's been for the past decade.
Just been feeling lonely again.
It's not that I lack for people to talk to. And I'm glad to have another place for some noise again that has activity (and broader interests, ironic that at one point I looked around for pony servers and now I'd missed the furry classics.) And another place to pop some of my art around too whenever I actually finish something. And talk to some old friends I haven't in a long time; glad to hear they've been doing decent.
Just that I've been missing some people who used to be around alot, but now barely. Sometimes they send a message or two and pop in for a token night before being gone again for weeks on end, sometimes almost a month (or what feels like one.) I feel it often, and my other friends do too.
I was hoping to spend some more time with them before I'd have less time due to work (at least it's work in this case as opposed to running dry of funds which was nearing, but still.)
It was part of why I was just so happy to see everyone together again a month ago on a game we used to play alot. At least for a short timespan. Then...this again.
A coldness in our little chatroom.
*sighs* That aside...
Also been thinking a little more on...self. Who I am, and what I wish to do with my casing so to speak; physically this time, not my usual questioning of my own personality. Nothing particular stands out though. Just a bit torn between fantasy, ideals...and wondering if I could handle the time and resources needed for changes if desired.
Why can't we have modification potions/spells in real life? I want to change MMOs already, I don't care if the graphics are "worse" and if "its for casuals" >:(.
I do have most of the inking done on my recent project! Gotta do some cleaning on that and then...COLORING! :)
I'll probably be fine.
But I could be better, at least tonight...
Time to sleep now.
