It's been quite some time since I've went n' made one of these now, hasn't it? It's evident by that 2 year time stamp on the previous one that... Journals ain't exactly somethin' I do a whole lot... In fact there's a lotta things that I just straight up don't do anymore... Frankly it's a little embarrassing just how little I do now compared to what it was like when I younger. Granted yes I didn't do terribly much either, but damn it at least I had some semblance of activeness when I was young... As it stands now my entire day just consists of getting up from whatever the hell time I pass out at (which that on it's own right is heavily random), spending time on my computer and just contemplate what to do, most of the time it's just Youtube, if that even. Sometimes I just blankly stare at it... Wondering just what the hell it is that I can do, what's gotten into me etc. etc. Just... A whole lot of things I just find... Bland now. Yeah people often tell me to go out and try new things if what I do now I find bland, but a little thing called lack of motivation kind of puts a major dampener on that now don't it?

Tl;dr basically being this: I'm bored with my life and what it's become and I honestly don't think that there's anything I can do to change it. That's it.