FA+
Shop
No Brave New World.....
6 years ago
General
No Brave New World, No Brave New World......
Lost in this place, I'll leave no Trace......
Stranger in a Strange Land....
Who can name it? ........yes draggy's feeling odd ......those words say it all my friends.
Lost in this place, I'll leave no Trace......
Stranger in a Strange Land....
Who can name it? ........yes draggy's feeling odd ......those words say it all my friends.
It be like that sometimes. One of those 'I know how I feel but can't put a name to that feeling' times.
Icecream helps.
Yes.....you know exactly how I feel..... Ice cream huh? Hmmm...... I'll have to pick some up on the way home!
It's Iron Maiden "Stranger in a Strange Land" .......those lyrics just resonate with me.....they seem so familiar....
But in case you forgot... Here it is!
Stranger in a Strange Land by Iron Maiden
Yes, I didn't know you were a Maiden fan!
Those words resonate with me today for some reason..... they're very familiar and Relatable.....
I understand that. I hope you are doing well and things like losing a loved one takes time, but just remember - they are still with you - gone but not forgotten
Yes I know....and you're right......some days are just easier than others I suppose. *Whimpers softly*
I'm gonna have to see if Game Stop has that one in yet, Thank you Woofy! *Hugs Tightly and Nuzzles*
And it relates because your a Space Adventuer sent into a new world and Glaxy you don't know. A literal Stranger in a Strange Land.
Ahhhh!!! I didn't know that's what the song was about....I was taking it more literally.
Great Eye Woofy!!
Song O_O ?...Oh Right, Stranger in a Strange Land XD . Ya, I have no idea what the songs about XD . What you Wrote just made me think of The Outer Worlds and Space Travle...The Song could be about trying to find your place in the world.
Or it could be about how we're born into this world with no sense of purpouse, direction or understanding, and how most of us lead very short lives, leaving no impact, no impression, no memory. As if we never lived at all.
*Shrugs* It's open for interpritaytion though, that's the nice thing about Music n_n .
True....but I wouldn't call myself Misery just yet....
The second description is more what I was thinking...... Damn, that's Really a sad thought when you put it like that bro....
Well, that's what Life is Dar. The serch for a Sense of Dirction, of Purpouse , the reason why we were brought into this world. Some people find it, some don't. We're each of us though, the Hero's and Writers of our own stories. Only we get to choose how it ends.
I know.....I Honestly Hate to wait for game's to come out.... it's like they tease you so much in advance, then you just Hope it's as good as they led you to believe.
Wow, that's Really Deep Bro..... it's true, but really deep.....
But so you're saying when we lose we orchestrate that as well?
Fate and Chance play no part?
Exactly XD . And then you curse the Game Creators to hell when you find out not only is it not as good as they hyped it to be, it inclueds Online Only Bullshit, Microtransactions, Bugs and Glitches of Every kind and requires at least 32 patches to try and "Fix" all it's problems.
I may be young, but I can get Philsophical. I've seen a lot of good and bad in my short time on this planet.
Indeed we do. Take for Example me Failing out of College or Getting Fired from my last job. With College, maby it woudn't have happened if I had been a better student, or sought out help when I started to struggle. Instead, I just kind of gave up. Looseing my job, I couda have avoided that too, if I had just managed to keep my anger under controle and my trap shut, or just walked away from the situation.
And of course Fate and Chance play a part, if your Smart enough, or Stupid enough to Answer the Door or take the bait, as the situation Warrent's. My mother for Example. She won a $190,000 Lottery Jackpot when my family needed it the most. With that Money, her and my Father were able to get out of Debt.
And how do you think we meet the people that become our frineds on our long journy? To qoute one of my favirote Video Game Charcters, "Is it Fate, Or Chance? I can never decide." How did you and I meet for example Dar? Was it Random Chance? Fate Interviened? Or maby a mix of both?
I know right?.......Very Frustrating at Best sometimes!
You my Friend are Very Wise for your age. ....and Quite Philosophical I might add, Draggy likes that! *Hugs Tightly*
These things.....yes and no. Yes, had you not gotten so Frustrated and eventually caved under the pressure....you may have done better. But that's only a maybe at best. Perhaps it was more the Schools fault for trying to force more on you than you could handle, have you thought about it in That light? Every learns at a different rate/speed. In that environment, you are a cookie cutter fit. They Force Feed you Year's of information in only a few semesters. It's Truly a wonder that Anyone makes it through with any of their sanity in tact!
I've got one for you, draggy crashed out of Highschool! So don't be so Hard on yourself love.
As for the job.... Yes, if you had better controlled your anger, if you had the presence of mind to walk away....but there's another side to this isn't there? Perhaps if They had not pushed you.... perhaps if they had seen the warning signs and we're Also Responsible enough to Disengage the issue Before it got out of Hand? Before you reached the point of no return? They are Equally to Blame love!
I have left Many jobs because of the same issue....but I never stopped trying to find something better, and I always try to learn from my mistakes for That is how we learn. Everyone makes mistakes, and there is always Two sides to a mistake, but what's important is that we learn from them.
The lottery is Chance or fate....though I lean more towards Chance than fate in that scenario. And that was Great!
That's a Great quote....and an even better Question.
I know how we met, I'm close friends with Megan, and saw your work there in her gallery. I was very taken by the work and soon Fascinated by the artist. But was it Chance or Fate that our paths crossed....I cannot answer that. I honestly have no idea... However I Am very Greatfull that our paths Did Meet!
So you've got me on that....draggy has no answer.
Perhaps Destiny did play a roll in this...*Hugs Tightly*
It's getting to the point where I'm seriously considering quiting being a gamer -_- . Well, at leat giveing up on keeping up with the newst releases and what not. Things are really starting to get out of hand -_- .
*Blushes hard and Hugs tightly Back* Thanks Dar...but Honestly, it's only because I've been through so much.
It's...a possability, I will admit that. I'm not the Sharpest tool in the Shed, and I'm not good at things like Math or Speling, sentance structure, things of that nature, as I'm sure you've noticed. I was always more into History and Sianence, beleive it or not XD . Colleges should focuse more on what people WANT to learn rather then what they THINK we should learn. We're the ones paying for it after all XD ! Still though, in the end, the failure was mine. I quit going to class, stopped doing the homework, wasted everyones time and money. I have no one to blame but myself.
Huh, I never would have pegged you for a Highschool Dropout Dar. Your way too smart.
Well, here's what finally set me off. It was about two years ago, back in about March I think it was. It was a rlativly good day. Things were calm, peaceful, I was haveing a good day. Then this woman and her kid came into the store. Again, they were calmn and happy. The Mother told her Son if he behaved she'd let him pick out a Candy Bar. So they go do they're shoping and go to the Candy Bar Aile. The kid wants two Candy Bars, and the mother tells him, no, he can only have one, they go back and forth for a bit, until finally the kid starts screaming and throwing a tantrum, saying he hates her and what not, and she's kind of laughing like it's some kind of joke, then the kid starts running around the store, yelling and screaming with his mom chaseing him. She finally catches him in front of my register, picks him up, and instead of takeing the Candy bars from him and takeing him out of the store, she just kind of laughs and says, "You know I lifts weights right?" She then puts him down and he turns around and tries to kick her.
It is at this point that something snapped in my brain. I'm not proude of what happened next, but here's what happened. I leaned against the counter, never raiseing my voice, never swareing and said to the Woman, "Lady, either you hit that Kid or I will..." She looked at me and said very idgintaly, "Well, I don't hit my Kid!" And walked off toward the back of the store, her Son in tow. I almost told her that that was why he was going to grow up to be a violent Socialpath, and wind up killing her and a lot of other people. But, I some how kept my mouth shut.
A couple of days later, my boss called me into his office, asked me what happened, then told me I was fired. Looking back on it, I know why I said what I said. If it had been me, if I had done what that little kid did, my parents would have beaten my ass black and blue in front of everyone. I grew up in an Era where it was still ok to discipline your kids. Now you can't do that anymore, and these little bastards get away with absolute murder.
Anyway, some people view me as a sort of hero for what I said, others view me as a Monster. Personally, I have to agree with the people who think I'm a Monster.
"A wise man learns from his own Mistakes. A Wiser man learns from the Mistakes of others." No one should be like me or fallow my example. Learn from this Fool.
It was grate n_n . Deffinetly took a lot of stress off my parents, which was a good thing, since I think me and my siblings were more then enough stress for them XD .
It's always been one of my favirote qouets, and one of my favirote games n_n .
And if I were not frineds with Megan, we may never have met. For what ever reason though, we did me, and I too am very Grateful we did n_n . You've been an Amazeing frined to me Dar n_n <3 .
*Hugs tightly back* Mayhap n_n <3 . So you see? Life isn't all bad n_n .
Dawwww.....you never thought me to be a drop out huh? Thank you.
Yes, I dropped out of Highschool in the start of the year to be honest.
I literally Failed my way through school. My parents were military, and so we moved literally from coast to coast every 4 years. I don't normally talk about such, but I'll make the exception for you.... I quickly fell behind in school because of this constant moving and because the education system is different between California and Virginia. Instead of my parents trying to help me, or getting a tutor they just told the school's to do the best they could with me, we would be gone in a few years. And that's what they did. They put me in "Special Needs" classes also known as "Handicap or Retard classes" as that is were they all ended up. So there goes any hope of a Real education.....in addition, I was Always the "New kid" so I got All the attention of the school Bully's. I was Bullied at school and Beaten at home. So I became Very Mean, Vile, Hateful and Filled with Rage! I became a Bully. I began Bullying the Bully's just so I could survive...but soon that wasn't enough....I wanted those who hurt me to Feel My Pain! And began not only hurting Bullies but innocent people as well. I'm not proud...I live with the Hell I created every day!
But I was forced through school, people Hated me, teachers hated me...it was He'll. Finally I went Too far in highschool and was sent to a Reform school of sorts...which was more of a prison to keep out of control kid's like me off of the street. We were locked up for eight hours a day, and the Abuse we got there would make you question Humanity my friend. So when they had to transfer me out to another school for my final year, I asked the principal what it would take to get my diploma. I was 18 and looking to end this nightmare.
He calmly looked at my records and then with a grin at me and replied "you would have to start school over from the six grade, because your records end there. You have No Grade credits or even History of being in school." So I used some Very choice words and left. That's how I dropped out of Highschool....an F-ING Failure from the Start Thanks to parents who didn't give two shakes of a Rats Ass about Me or my Miserable F-ING Life! Because They didn't want Children and Viewed My Birth a Damn Curse!
I Applaud you for standing up to that ignorant and arrogant woman!
A Monster?......No my friend, I was an F-ING Monster...you are an Angel!
Perhaps we would never have met had it not been for Megan.....but I would like to think that Fate played a roll in my favor this time. *Hugs Tightly*
*Huggles my Draggy tight* Christ -_- . That explains so much -_- . *Snuggles* I'm so sorry you had to go though that liveing hell Dar -_- , but don't blame yourself for what you were forced to become. Everyone has they're brakeing point, you just reached yours. And to me, it's sounds like you had every justifiable right to be Angry. No, you shoudn't have taken it out on the wrong people, but is it any wonder you did? Our society should be helping kinds like you, not puting them through a fucking meat grinder like that -_- . *Huggles more* I'm so Sorry Dar -_- .
If you don't mind me asking, what brought you back from the brink?
And, is there anyway you could get your GED? You shoudn't be denyed an education just because your Parents and the System failed you -_- .
*Blushes Super Hard* Thank you Hon, but in the end, it wasn't worth it. I lost a good Job and the Dumb Bitch probably didn't learn anything.
*Blinks and looks up before pulling a Halo off my horns* Now how did that get there? *Throws it in the trash*
*Hugs tightly back and nuzzles* <3 ...
That's just the Dust on top of the cake Bro.... there's a Lot more than just that. My life Was a living Hell. And to some degree it still is.....all the pain and hurt I've caused others still haunts me every day and resides in the darkest corners of my mind.... waiting their chance to jump out and and stick me with the painful memories I've suppressed for all these years. If it does explain anything, then good. Maybe you can learn from my pain... without the suffering.
I've dedicated my life to helping others Avoid the nightmare I had to live.
You may ask me Anything love, for you I am an open book.
What brought me back from the edge? Finding myself standing in the backyard with a loaded .38 in my paw squeezing the trigger ever so Gently so that I would flinch and miss blowing my brains out on my 13th birthday. That was the closest I had ever come to successfully killing myself. I had tried many times before in more wreakless ways...like blindly walking into traffic... stepping to the edge of the roof of a high-rise hotel.... But the gun was the coupe to graw to end it all. As I stood there I noticed nothing changed...the world did not care if I pulled the trigger. Even the bird's paid no attention to my pain and what I was about to do.
And in those final moment's when I was pulling the hammer back, a voice came in my head....No Not some celestial voice, but a simple Thought crossed my mind...."It's not your fault".
And in that moment I realized....it Wasn't my fault. No of it..... I did not ask for Life, I did not ask to be Born. It Really wasn't my fault.
And that was the turning point for me....as Dark as it is...that was it.
I could get my GED if I had money, Time and a desire to do so. But why should I? What would it prove? That I can answer some test correctly? It would not further me in my position. As far as anyone knows I graduated Highschool. I got lucky in that the last school I attended (the prison school as I like to call it, and I can tell you some tails about that place!) It was closed and torn down a couple of year's after I left because of what they did to kids was exposed. So, when employers looked for my diploma, they hit a dead end.
Your draggy's got a lot of issues love.... I keep it together Most days and with the help of Beautiful Friends like yourself, but just Berly.
Bunny A.K.A Rabbitfangs kept me going...she understood what I was going through and knew how to handle me. Losing her...was Deviating. But gaining you...has been a Blessing!
This is only the beginning of understanding what's in my head....
But you may ask me anything love, I will always give you the truth.
*Hugs Tightly the sweet woof!*
*Huggles tight, never wanting to let go* You realized then what most Suicied victums realize too late then. That it's not your fault. That as bad as your problems are, with a little help and understanding, they weren't worth ending your self over. *Kisses your cheek* I for one am very glad you didn't pull that trigger Dar.
True. Draggy is uber smart. He dosn't need a stupid piece of Paper to prove it. I'm glad the school got shut down and torn to pieces. Hope that awfule Headmaster or what ever the hell you call em, got to live on the street and then got shanked by a homeless person over something -_- .
*Hugs my sweet Draggy tightly back* I'll always be here for you Hon. I'm sorry you lost your frined. I didn't get a chance to know her, but she seemed like a sweet person. I can't replacer, and I'm not going to try. But what I can do is support you in my own way, by being as good a frined as I can be to you n_n <3 .
Thank you Woofy.....I'm glad I didn't too because I never would have met such a kind and gentle Wolf as yourself. *Hugs Tightly*
I don't think I'm That Smart....but I get buy....I'm glad the place was shut down too! There'd been enough suffering there.
No one will ever take the place of Bunny.
But you have Carved a Special place my heart all of your own my Dearest Friend a place that no one else can ever fill.
Just be the Beautiful person you are Woofy, and don't ever change, That is all I ask of you love.
*Meeps and Blushes hard, Hugging tightly back* And I would never have met such a Kind, Sweet, Sophisticated, Smart, Clever and Silly Draggy, and my life would be less bright for it. *Snuggles*
Your very smart Dar n_n . A hell of a lot smarter then I am, that's for sure XD .
*Huggles tight and close, kissing your cheek* On that Dar, you have my promise n_n <3 ...
*Blushes* I'll agree with the Silly part.....
*Nuzzles the Sweet Woof* No, I may be a little Wiser than you, but not Smarter. Wisdom comes from age my friend and learning from a Lot of Mistakes I've made along the way my friend....
*Blushes and kisses you cheek*
Then I can ask for no more love!
*Kisses your cgeek* The rest is true too n_n <3 .
*Meeps and growls a bit, hugging you tight* Being Smart and being Wise are the same thing Hon. The only way we get smarter is by liveing, experinceing everything life has to throw at us.
*Blushes hard and snuggles against you* n_n ~ <3 ...
I cannot help but agree with you, Sweety!
For better or worse our lives are trapped in this Etch-A-Sketch. As far as Earth is concerned; We were not, we are, we will not be.
True and Very Deep my friend.... Your thoughts always make draggy think, I like that. *Hugs Tightly*