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Life update, little bit of a downer topic.
6 years ago
I'm going to preface this by saying that I am writing this note as a simple matter of fact, a statement and explanation of things, not for trying to get sympathy.
Things in my life have been taking something of a turn. For those that aren't already in the know, I live with my parents, there are multiple reasons why, but they don't really matter any longer. What matters now is the reason I am (very likely) going to be living with them for quite some time more. My father has been showing increasing signs of either Alzheimer's or at least some form of memory issues. I am not willing to let my mother live on her own to deal with the stresses that this condition can and will cause to her, and I want to keep making sure I can take care of my father, making memories while I can.
I write this because there are different media in which I play with people, Roleplaying on F-chat, computer gaming, etc, and I want people to know if/why I may leave abruptly. I will do my absolute best to give a head's up that I am stepping away, but I am putting family first, so basically "RL comes first" as the phrase goes. This has been something that's happening more lately, and over the past year its affected my friendships with some people I like. I have only told a few people the real reason behind my incredibly flighty moods of late, but its past time I address this and be upfront about it. There has been stress for me as well regarding this issue, so its made for difficulty in finding (and keeping) the right mood to role play. To those that have been affected by this, I really am sorry, you deserve better than what I have been able to give you. I should've been up front about the actual reasons instead of dancing around the issue.
As for what I am planning to do moving forwards from here? As i said, I am probably going to be staying with the parents so I can help out where needed (currently this involves helping my father with managing his electronic devices), helping to make sure my Mom stays sane. There is also going to need to be a serious discussion on how to proceed forwards, there are ways to help slow the progression of memory loss, but we need to help my dad realize its something that needs to be done. There is (very understandably) a fear from him in truly acknowledging the depth of his memory issues. I mean, you can't even rely on your own mind, that is absolutely fucking TERRIFYING. I will be meeting with my brothers to see what we can do moving forwards as well. And, just as importantly, I am going to try my best to make what memories I can in the hopes that he will be able to remember them still years down the road.
I would make one request of my friends and any who read this journal. Hug the ones you love, do not take for granted the time you have with them. I am beginning to realize (a bit late but not too late) just how much more I should have done this.
Things in my life have been taking something of a turn. For those that aren't already in the know, I live with my parents, there are multiple reasons why, but they don't really matter any longer. What matters now is the reason I am (very likely) going to be living with them for quite some time more. My father has been showing increasing signs of either Alzheimer's or at least some form of memory issues. I am not willing to let my mother live on her own to deal with the stresses that this condition can and will cause to her, and I want to keep making sure I can take care of my father, making memories while I can.
I write this because there are different media in which I play with people, Roleplaying on F-chat, computer gaming, etc, and I want people to know if/why I may leave abruptly. I will do my absolute best to give a head's up that I am stepping away, but I am putting family first, so basically "RL comes first" as the phrase goes. This has been something that's happening more lately, and over the past year its affected my friendships with some people I like. I have only told a few people the real reason behind my incredibly flighty moods of late, but its past time I address this and be upfront about it. There has been stress for me as well regarding this issue, so its made for difficulty in finding (and keeping) the right mood to role play. To those that have been affected by this, I really am sorry, you deserve better than what I have been able to give you. I should've been up front about the actual reasons instead of dancing around the issue.
As for what I am planning to do moving forwards from here? As i said, I am probably going to be staying with the parents so I can help out where needed (currently this involves helping my father with managing his electronic devices), helping to make sure my Mom stays sane. There is also going to need to be a serious discussion on how to proceed forwards, there are ways to help slow the progression of memory loss, but we need to help my dad realize its something that needs to be done. There is (very understandably) a fear from him in truly acknowledging the depth of his memory issues. I mean, you can't even rely on your own mind, that is absolutely fucking TERRIFYING. I will be meeting with my brothers to see what we can do moving forwards as well. And, just as importantly, I am going to try my best to make what memories I can in the hopes that he will be able to remember them still years down the road.
I would make one request of my friends and any who read this journal. Hug the ones you love, do not take for granted the time you have with them. I am beginning to realize (a bit late but not too late) just how much more I should have done this.
I worry about alz/dementia for my mother. Two things I know can really help it.
1. Statins are a poison. There is eviidence that for elderly over 60 they do no good and can do harm. A side effect of statins is brain fogginess. (I have experienced it) Getting off statins may help. (If he is on them)
2. Ketosis. Your brain can survive on 2 types of energy. Glucose (the most common) and Ketones. There is increasing evidence that Alzheimers and certain dementia is in fact a yet determined Type 3 Diabetes. The brain becomes insulin resistant so cannot uptake glucose. Brain starves. Dementia happens because brain is starved. So that leads one to switching to Ketones. The brain does very well on Ketones. I speak from experience.