“Loving me will be the biggest mistake you will ever make.”

And she knew this...

And still thoughts and memories of him forced the corners of her lips to turn upwards into the slightest of smiles.


And so she fell in love with him again. She knew that she might not recover from it this time, but it was 4 AM and being back in his presence, she finally felt at home.

It was the only time she felt at home.

“I learned to hold my self longer than I wanted to.”

“I’ve dealt with pain alone, so no one could use my wounds and scars against me.”

But these were her thoughts...
Her heartaches and heartbeats.

” I wish I could make you to understand how it felt to be in my shoes, how it felt to feel all that pain you made me feel. Maybe then you would respect me, maybe then you wouldn’t talk about me like I’m crazy. Maybe, just maybe, you’ve regreted what you have done. ”

-But you don’t want to understand.
-You won't.
-You can't.
-“Because if I could... I would.”

I loved you in all the ways I could never love myself
—  maybe that’s why it was so hard to let go