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An Update and Explanation~~
6 years ago
...though not an excuse.
Hi all - assuming anyone is still here? Just wanted to check in.
Back in mid 2017 I had some significant life upheavals that I didn't really want to talk about (I am a pretty private person) but it affected me more than I cared to admit. I don't live close to my family or have a lot of close friends so I don't really have an IRL support system and I am used to dealing with stuff on my own. I have had bad experiences with social media in the past (also why I am private) so I don't rely on internet friends perhaps as much as I should either.
Well, without going too much into it, because we all have things going on - my life stressors coupled with my (until now) low level anxiety just kind of got out of control and I just became a different person for a while there. I stopped taking my meds (great job!) which did not help. I used to love doing commissions and though I tried to get back into it (they have always been fun in the past!) it just became one more stressful thing. It was easier for me to just stop drawing altogether and check out of social media. I haven't logged in to FA in...well a long time. I was dismissive to those of you who tried reaching out in email and discord and I am sorry. It was all just a bit overwhelming. It was not a reflection on any of you, just me trying to deal with stuff and not feeling comfortable enough to confide in others.
The good news is that I made changes. I moved to a new city, quit my good but stressful job, have a new job that is just as good but has minimal responsibility/stress compared to the old one, got a great new place to live (with a studio so I can do artwork in comfort!) and purged a lot of my stuff (anxiety makes me hoard...). Instead of living in the middle of nowhere I now live in a city! The acute life upheaval issues have resolved and will not be recurring. I can't promise that I will never have stressful times anymore but that particular situation is resolved.
I still have a ways to go but I started working on a painting this week (my first since early 2018) and I actually enjoy working on it and I am excited to do more. I won't be taking commissions until I feel like I am ready (if at all) but I think I will be updating FA with a little more regularity. Maybe I'll even try streaming sometime soon.
Anyway thanks for reading and (hopefully) understanding/forgiving.
Hi all - assuming anyone is still here? Just wanted to check in.
Back in mid 2017 I had some significant life upheavals that I didn't really want to talk about (I am a pretty private person) but it affected me more than I cared to admit. I don't live close to my family or have a lot of close friends so I don't really have an IRL support system and I am used to dealing with stuff on my own. I have had bad experiences with social media in the past (also why I am private) so I don't rely on internet friends perhaps as much as I should either.
Well, without going too much into it, because we all have things going on - my life stressors coupled with my (until now) low level anxiety just kind of got out of control and I just became a different person for a while there. I stopped taking my meds (great job!) which did not help. I used to love doing commissions and though I tried to get back into it (they have always been fun in the past!) it just became one more stressful thing. It was easier for me to just stop drawing altogether and check out of social media. I haven't logged in to FA in...well a long time. I was dismissive to those of you who tried reaching out in email and discord and I am sorry. It was all just a bit overwhelming. It was not a reflection on any of you, just me trying to deal with stuff and not feeling comfortable enough to confide in others.
The good news is that I made changes. I moved to a new city, quit my good but stressful job, have a new job that is just as good but has minimal responsibility/stress compared to the old one, got a great new place to live (with a studio so I can do artwork in comfort!) and purged a lot of my stuff (anxiety makes me hoard...). Instead of living in the middle of nowhere I now live in a city! The acute life upheaval issues have resolved and will not be recurring. I can't promise that I will never have stressful times anymore but that particular situation is resolved.
I still have a ways to go but I started working on a painting this week (my first since early 2018) and I actually enjoy working on it and I am excited to do more. I won't be taking commissions until I feel like I am ready (if at all) but I think I will be updating FA with a little more regularity. Maybe I'll even try streaming sometime soon.
Anyway thanks for reading and (hopefully) understanding/forgiving.
Looking forward to seeing whatever it might be you choose to share, when you choose to share!
Your silent watcher
now and always,
Mika Kyubi
Kitsune-at-Large
(oft-times VERY large)
I had worked a bit about your previous job, since as soon as you got it, you started getting sporadic. I'm really happy to hear that you found ways to alleviate your stressors and found something that let's you enjoy life again.
We'll be here, take your time. I'm just going to wait, knowing my addiction to your shiny art is about to resume. *grin*
This is my royal seer Reign
https://toyhou.se/3021294.reign
Feel free to design outfit/crown and add flora and fauna if your into drawing that right now.