Ok… first of all… im writing like I would talk you face to face… like always did
guys i want to do an announcement about my life… because all are good people that deserve to know whats going to happen….some allready know… others not until now
MY PAST: a degradated life cause the country didn’t do something to fix his corrupted heart… loosing many things that hurted me don’t have r now… including irl friends… once I leaved school I asked what do with my life, the answer was study… but lost 3 years on that trying in vain until this year that finally I could do the test to enter… durning those 3 years saw my friends go (they were busy… or I didn’t matter for them at all…. *sigh* sure was the second) and spent that time fixing the house where I live, playing a game with friends I miss a little r now… they were good TuT… ok so… this year… had 3 months on totally national electrical falluer… surviving only with what could work without electricity and help from people to charge with a car what we needed… once the blackout was over… my pc broken yay!, what make me endure this life was gone… so.. entered to the uni without it… just focusing on the studios… really focused… im glad I can adapt well… I had to, would be crazy if not
-My feelings… well… no friends… alone… no love… passing the time my only mate I could give my life for… we talk, but we can’t see eachother because is too spencive to me travel and even see a movie together, so all for phone… so… lifeless, I felt lifeless… the food tasted meh… playing games didn’t helped either… just to end the day quickly to the next day, life unhappy, each day waking up to just play, eat and sleep… and hold my parents problems… ugh… they blame me for not helping them but when I do they aren’t happy either… sounds “familiar?” XD, okok… ummm… I want one thing… be in peace, they maked sure of bother that, ugh… even had to lie my parents to write this in peace... I don’t care

MY … reborn? :thinking: …. Yeah something like that… ive been on the furry fandom for 6 years… and never talked to someone… until I finally wanted an OC… I asked my mate that is artist but like I asked him too much… so I saw a lil artist with this art that is just great, I liked a lot… then my shyness hit me for months… until I decided… fuck it… some months early I started lurking on dreamer server and others and that’s how started using discord (like a year ago… maybe more) … so… I saw this artist had discord 5 or 6 months later… and I was ashamed as fuck when I saw his profile… no text option to send something without be friends… so I just send it friend request…. Then forgot I did XD… and I was blushing when saw he talked me OWO… he talk me!!!! ME!!!! OWO… do i.. answer?... then I did..
Mytor19/03/2019
Oh hi
Im not used to write here

And there I was…. Talking for first time a fluid chat with someone… letting myself go and cross a line I never crossed… then university came, and I adapted to it.. but I had him to chat with even if I was weeks on silent… i was curious I wanted more… then we started talking more… our future… my experiences here on Venezuela, his artist life… and we grow up then… chatting more and mid my semester on uni… I asked him about my request again… that day we did something I don’t regret at all, I gad more clear what emintor was… and then…
Gosh quite a hot Charizard x3
Mytor
If you say so... Whait thats me!, shush >_<
🌺LeChecker🌺
x3
I wonder if the Charizard likes some Zoroark playing on his dick?~
Mytor
Oh gosh im roleplaying OWO
Yes
🌺LeChecker🌺
Heheh~ Maybe even right now?~
Mytor
But watch those claws
🌺LeChecker🌺
Theehee~ I am always careful~
Mytor
Thanks for this, i mean it 

Since then I love roleplay, then he invited me to his server and I was really excited, like… felt special. Cared for someone… once there I was greted well… meet good people... and great friends… I started changing… I watched more the phone, chated when I could I felt different, eager to chat… see… roleplay and rise different… once I was ending my semester… I was smiling… hearing a music a bat friend gave me.. I worked hard, without sleep for hours cause homework but still chatting… then that day on the uni.. I was smiling as I hearded his music… many where stressed cus final project… I didn’t, I was happy… after years lifeless I craved for happynes and I found it… then expanded my horizonts, meet people on other servers, meet friends, rp with some, get along with others… still very happy and eager to know people and then… IM AN ARTIST??! WHAT?!
yeah… I felt like.. that artist that gave me all this deserved a gift… so.. I spent hours drawing his character and… I was.. speechless.. HOW I CAN DO THIS?!/ Oh FFS LOOKS AWESOME!!!... WHAT IS HAPPEINING TO ME?! JAJAJJA
Then I started to draw and im sure my architect semester had to do with now I could draw… another thing to do as I growed my friends… and I started sketching bodies, practicing (all on my FA page) then I felt I could return my happiness to others… but all changed when I met chico… well actually no, all changed when he told me the words… pff was ironical cause someone asked and he just… “im in love with the zard”… had a blank mind on that moment… someone love me? (gosh im … tearing writing this… happy tears.. chico IS YOUR FAULT HUN! XD >_<) so.. yeah.. no one loved me like that way… and just read it.. I had worryes, questions, doubts… just took another step and cross another line.. and the next day say him yes… and make him so happy after that and he made me an digital artist, drawing us together as one on a rp we did… and then a friend that was so bad.. I cheer him up… and then suddently I was his best friend after some weeks, he made me happy as I made him too, to the point he had a crush (that I had to refuse for chico, but we grow better after that)… then he told me what I was for him… it broked me, starting to tear of happiness with his words… where so deep and so wonderfull… someone that cared for me in a very deep personal way saying how I matter for him… I was so high that.. the only way to go now… was going down ofc… meet people with problems, that affected me… frustrated for not be able to help, or doing something that make them down as an accident mine… I hated it… had a very bad week… people wanting to suicide, down for feel alone, jealousy… after being so lifeless… and have emotions so good… I accepted the bad emotions would come as well… I felt frustration, sadness, felt jealous, ignored… then just steped back for a second and though about it… and changed seeing that there’s always sad parts and I had to accept I can’t do something or just do all I can and move on so the people affected me less, and gave my 100% to help no matter what, always using my heart on it

so.. I changed from lifeless to be a normal person, breaking my limits with each step and be myself without fear, but found now a wall… that I have to climb to go on

MY FUTURE… since I made this change I wanted to do more things on my life… my friends gave me a meaning to live, my hun gave me a purpose.. Gather money and go to live with or… bring him to me, my art is giving me a work somehow, people had donated me already money >_< meep, so.. yeah the wall.. university… tomorrow to be accuarated.. I was seeing my future and you guys changed my horizont… I just wanted to spent time with all of you, be with, care, love, play, share, enjoy… and be myself but… im on troubles… durning university… my father lost his work because country politics, his enterprise broken and he had to leave… so.. using less money… and stuff, so we are on a dead line if on 9 months we don’t leave Venezuela, we will starve and sell to survive to the point of… starve of hunger… the car we buyed could give us 8 months more, but in the end… things can happen, leave the studies to work and maintain my family as my father, even with my father… so 5 months ago he recived an work offer, on Republica Dominica/ caribean sea, that would give 10x times more money that he won here on a high civil engineer charge.. the issue… I will lost almost all my goods cause they have to stay here on Venezuela, just go with some clothes and all being able to carry on my hands, pockets or whatever… losing the chance to see my mate again on irl and very likely be unable to chat until I find a communication company to use their cus… isn’t the same so.. some months without be able to talk, starting a new life… and im frustrated… because I wanted many things I cant do because my father… he put myself on a situation I had to keep studying here on Venezuela… I didn’t wanted, I wanted to work and be myself without problems… but no… now I can’t… and today si my last day free until December… im still scared of my future… because is unfair… it always was… it always will, that’s how life works… so im about to take a deep breath and go tomorrow… be unable to talk much until I return home at 6pm from Monday to Friday but i… *sigh* wanted to do a lot before this happened… because like I said, I will lose the chance to do it… had 15 draws people requested me… I just could do one… complete my fallout game? Yea sure.. No I can’t :C, roleplay with people? I crave for… but yeah my draws absorbed me and now the university will… ugh… *sigh*….

I know I can count on you guys to be with me on this next months… but still im frustrated, because I have to move on and I don’t want to… *hug the reader* I write this to make all know what will happen to me… and still… *sigh* im not enough.. im sorry for the people that talked to me and im just busy to talk and don’t be on the servers like before… I hate myself for that, im sorry for not be able to make my draws fast… or DON’T draw when I had those 3 years but like… that would change me and I wouldn’t meet checker meaning wouldn’t meet you all… so is a cursed past… nvm >.<… im sorry for the people I hurted without wanted to… and im sorry I wouldn’t be able to be with you like I would love to

… I needed to pull out this of my chest cause all who made something for me or I did something for you, know that im fine… though all I wrote, I wanted to do an announcement of what will happen to me… and thanks for be with me on any way…


NOTE: to make this clear uwu, ill bee more busy over time, but ill try to talk when i can