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It's not a closet, it's a shark cage
6 years ago
...and I don't mean a cage full of sharks. I mean a cage full of YOU, and the sharks are swimming around you.
A closet implies somewhere dark, safe, and hidden; however, those do not feel accurate to me.
The sharks can see me and smell me. I'm not hidden. I'd be a fool to think people don't recognize the little coping mechanisms and methods of relief I use in order to keep my insides from exploding my outsides. I catch plenty of side-eyes, I hear whispers. They know. I'm a terrible liar. The desire for people to KNOW me sifts through all my facades used to make sure people DON'T know me.
Leaving a closet is supposed to symbolize freedom. It's meant to represent the light of day shining on you, and a voyage toward a world into which you intend to integrate.
When you leave the shark cage, the only thing you integrate with is a predator's stomach.
A closet implies somewhere dark, safe, and hidden; however, those do not feel accurate to me.
The sharks can see me and smell me. I'm not hidden. I'd be a fool to think people don't recognize the little coping mechanisms and methods of relief I use in order to keep my insides from exploding my outsides. I catch plenty of side-eyes, I hear whispers. They know. I'm a terrible liar. The desire for people to KNOW me sifts through all my facades used to make sure people DON'T know me.
Leaving a closet is supposed to symbolize freedom. It's meant to represent the light of day shining on you, and a voyage toward a world into which you intend to integrate.
When you leave the shark cage, the only thing you integrate with is a predator's stomach.
You call it ironic. Maybe you are right. But that is just who I am. I am a kind hearted individual who loves to watch and make violent media.
As always I’m here if you need or want to talk :)
I understand that completely.
found out maaan. Blood would be shed.😓
There are stories of people that waited until the age of 30.You safety and your life has to come frist of all thing.
Tell the people you trust very much in your life. Sadly the only people
I told "was" FA. That's how deep it is for me.
Here if you need me, regardless.
Always will be.
that I could love her be with her, Then I feel bad about loveing that person
start hating myself for it, Then sadly I wish I was no long alive that the
world is better off without me, Then I think no I can't do that to myself,
I go back to praying and the whole thing starts over again.
I came to a point that I'm tired of going on that wheel. That I got to start
loving me. Even though the people around me may not. I will love God
and love what l love. I got to stay in the closet for my safety. But at least here I can be myself.
❤💚💙💛❤💚💙💛❤💚💙💛❤💚💙💛❤💚💙💛❤💚💙
If you got to talk I'm here. I'm going through the same battle.