I know people don't like ranting or any of that but I feel better making these posts as I feel better doing so, sorry for those who may not like this kind of stuff but I need to do it.

so anyone who personally knows me has learned that I dislike my mom, well more than dislike, more of hate her. I'm like the rejected child, all of her kids are, never planning on having kids but well she more or less can't keep her legs closed for the life of her, sex is all she really knows, she doesn't know much else. Why I have a problem with her? you may ask, well my good fellow I will tell you, she doesn't care about me, don't let her fool you, she doesn't know how to raise a child at all, my mother would spread lies about my grandmother and uncle like "they stole me" "her uncle cant take care of me because of poor eyesight" my grandmother went through the law system to have custody of me and my uncle has done an amazing job taken care of me when my grandmother worked. my mother went from city to city, house to house because she can't keep a roof over her head longer than a year or 2 years, she would miss my birthday's making lies on why she leaves and it normally after boxing days she will leave, she got her Christmas gifts what more does she need this half of the family, on my 12th birthday I think, I got mad at her and I told her off because to be fair she don't care about me, so I would stop talking to her but when she does come I more or less try to be decent and nice even though deep down I wish she was banished to the underworld where she belongs. she writes of facebook wishing me a happy birthday and mommy loves you, I just sit there and laugh cuz I know she doesn't care when has she ever cared about me. My 20th birthday it hit me hard because she was living in my complex at the time with her boyfriend Rodger who committed suicide in their basement (I will get to that later.) she was "sick" and couldn't walk down the tiny hill to my house to say happy birthday to me and spend a little time, no that was too much work for her, but the next day spammed my facebook with happy birthday stuff and still didn't come but when it came to his birthday he no joke had the works, birthday decore, EVERYTHING. That hurt me a lot as like I didn't matter to her at all so when it came to the fall a little around September, my grandmother got a call from my mother saying Rodger killed himself and was upset, but not even 48 hours later she asked "who am I going to have sex with now" like are you kidding me, your boyfriend died and all you care about is sex, you loved the dude, so I thought. she after he died I became important to her as she didn't have him anymore, so she moved a few small towns over and met a new man and moved in with him and his daughter who is 15 years old. that daughter became more important to her than me, even got her a new phone, I have been using an LG g6 since like 2 Christmas's ago and I don't get a new phone, I would like a Samsung note as a phone but she will never get me one, she is taking this kid to do things and here I site doing commissions, not leaving the house and wanting to do things. I'm just scraping the ice on the many lies and wrongs she did to me that I won't disclose her for personal reasons.

thanks for reading this guys.