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Fursonas: Tough place again...
6 years ago
TLDR I'm thinking about which fursona to use as my main, since both have personal issues involved in their creation.
Ever since I was in middle school I've had a serious problem with depression. You know, not having friends 'll do that to ya (among other things). This made me feel rejected and unwanted, so when I found out about the furry fandom I thought being a rat would be fitting. But not just any rat, a rat who's rough and tough and confident and doesn't care what anyone thinks about him (but still had friends somehow). As you can imagine this fantasy of mine lasted for quite a while.
However, about a year ago, I randomly became worried again that having a rat character as my main face would be grounds for rejection. People that I might want to be friends or even RP with might not like rats so they might not give me a chance. And not having a chance to show people who I am is kind of a nightmare for me. So I decided to make another character, this one more like the real me but also rather pure and logical and kind. (The" positive" things I wanted myself to be, instead of Daniel's "Negative" themes, now that I think about it.) This fursona was fun to mess with, but some of my friends were off put by the changes. Some didn't know how to interact anymore, and others stopped talking altogether.
Anyway a few weeks ago I suddenly realized that me making a character out of fear of other people's opinion of me was wrong. I shouldn't be what I THINK people want me to be, I should be what I WANT TO BE! (Unless transformation is involved.) But... Who do I want to be?
Ever since I was in middle school I've had a serious problem with depression. You know, not having friends 'll do that to ya (among other things). This made me feel rejected and unwanted, so when I found out about the furry fandom I thought being a rat would be fitting. But not just any rat, a rat who's rough and tough and confident and doesn't care what anyone thinks about him (but still had friends somehow). As you can imagine this fantasy of mine lasted for quite a while.
However, about a year ago, I randomly became worried again that having a rat character as my main face would be grounds for rejection. People that I might want to be friends or even RP with might not like rats so they might not give me a chance. And not having a chance to show people who I am is kind of a nightmare for me. So I decided to make another character, this one more like the real me but also rather pure and logical and kind. (The" positive" things I wanted myself to be, instead of Daniel's "Negative" themes, now that I think about it.) This fursona was fun to mess with, but some of my friends were off put by the changes. Some didn't know how to interact anymore, and others stopped talking altogether.
Anyway a few weeks ago I suddenly realized that me making a character out of fear of other people's opinion of me was wrong. I shouldn't be what I THINK people want me to be, I should be what I WANT TO BE! (Unless transformation is involved.) But... Who do I want to be?
I dunno if I'd make a fursona out of one. The copyright thing scares me lol.
I ask myself this a lot, as it feels like I might have been too aggressive about trying not to be a Gary Stu and might have hamstrung the fun aspects of my characters.
You're fine as you are, I like the mechasaurs.
Especially since i need to rebrand myself ApexAlpha anyways.