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6 years ago
This isn't something that's very easy for me to talk about, as it is for anyone I guess. Mental health is something a lot of people struggle with, and struggle with being public about what they're going through. It's always been encouraged of guys in particular to just toughen up and when they're having a hard time, to not talk about it.
I've struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. There were moments growing up where I went through a lot of difficult things that made it worse, but sometimes it wouldn't be so bad. Lately, in the last 6+ months, it's been really, really bad. I've been struggling with work, personal life, eating, sleeping, self care, etc. And as much as I try and come across differently online because I don't want to scare people off or something, these past few months have really been taking their toll on me. I know I haven't been posting as often, or consistently for a while, and I just wanted to let those people who care know what's going on, and know that I'm not just getting lazy or something..
Recently, I tried to OD. Well, I did OD technically. Noticably, I'm still here. I ended up vomiting up the majority of the meds, and have spent the last few days resting, with any further OD symptoms being tracked and monitored. So far I appear to be recovering fine.
I'm saying this I guess just because if I don't say anything, nobody knows i'm struggling as much as I am, and nobody knows what I'm going through. I have immense self doubt, and self loathing, and it's severely impacting my life to the point where I've wanted to end it for a while, until I eventually tried to.
While i'm now on the road to recovery, I've made sure that more close people in my life are aware of what I'm going through rather than keeping it to myself, and their support has helped ease a lot of my pain.
I'm doing my best to try and manage things, but lately I've just been getting so incredibly overwhelmed and it's been really tough.
Anyway, that's it. I just wanted to say something for once really, rather than just being quiet about this like i always have, nothing's gonna change unless you make changes right? Thanks for reading <3
- Tugg
I've struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. There were moments growing up where I went through a lot of difficult things that made it worse, but sometimes it wouldn't be so bad. Lately, in the last 6+ months, it's been really, really bad. I've been struggling with work, personal life, eating, sleeping, self care, etc. And as much as I try and come across differently online because I don't want to scare people off or something, these past few months have really been taking their toll on me. I know I haven't been posting as often, or consistently for a while, and I just wanted to let those people who care know what's going on, and know that I'm not just getting lazy or something..
Recently, I tried to OD. Well, I did OD technically. Noticably, I'm still here. I ended up vomiting up the majority of the meds, and have spent the last few days resting, with any further OD symptoms being tracked and monitored. So far I appear to be recovering fine.
I'm saying this I guess just because if I don't say anything, nobody knows i'm struggling as much as I am, and nobody knows what I'm going through. I have immense self doubt, and self loathing, and it's severely impacting my life to the point where I've wanted to end it for a while, until I eventually tried to.
While i'm now on the road to recovery, I've made sure that more close people in my life are aware of what I'm going through rather than keeping it to myself, and their support has helped ease a lot of my pain.
I'm doing my best to try and manage things, but lately I've just been getting so incredibly overwhelmed and it's been really tough.
Anyway, that's it. I just wanted to say something for once really, rather than just being quiet about this like i always have, nothing's gonna change unless you make changes right? Thanks for reading <3
- Tugg
glad to have you around :J
I want to help if possible... I have NO IDEA on how you are feeling right now, but be sure that there are people that really care for your wellbeing! You are worthy of love, respect and dignity for who you are!
If it's really bad, you could try professional counseling if you are comfortable with it... it helped me getting out of depression myself, so I recommend for everyone...
Please, be safe, the world is harsh, but we are here for a purpose... cheers man! Hope you feel better soon!
-Axiom
I wish you all the best for your recovery and that many many close friends will aid you along the way.