Becoming Insane & Shout 2000 finaly... What the FUCK is wrong with you?





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If you turn this into a meme... idc its just a vent to me.

For all those fucktard local furs that see me as a worthless blip on the face of this planet... FUCK YOU! All your nagging and bitching at me to get a job/life are all for naught. I'd rather get a fucking hammer and mash all your fuckin brains in! GO on and make a comment now *picks up his hammer* I'm ready for your ass...

I'm sick of all those prissy lil FUCKS that wanna compare their fucking achievements to MINE. You want me to be you? I'm not you moron I'm NEVER going to be you. STOP FUCKIN TELLING ME WHAT YOU EXPECT OF ME! I dont expect to be the fuckin president of the US and even if I was I'd let this shithole burn! I'd have gutted the whole thing and started off from the fucking start. No CIA FBI IRS or any of that fucking turd munching bullshit.

You keep telling me what YOU want ME to be. Once again... I'm not YOU ya dumbshit. If I was you I would probably be weaker not have scars and not be a mental case that has the capacity to break violently and mash someones face in for yelling at me just once. Nice lil factoid isn't it?

If I started to smack everyone around that pissed me off I'd have to start with my childhood and work my way up through the worms that have pissed me off... I could name a few here but what fun would that be?

BAH! Fucket... ya know what? I'm going to name them... Just so you know who's pissed me off even if its a singular anomaly on the map that is my life time.

1) My parents... mainly my mother. Why? Because she controls who I can meet... She's the biggest mother henner I've ever seen and known. What is a mother hen? Well thats simple someone that cannot go with out contoling their children IE who they know and hang out with... stuff like that. It pisses me off so fuckin bad that I cant go out and meet people because she has to know almost ever single detail of the person's life before I get to go hang out.

2) My grandparents... both of them piss me off on pretty much a monthly basis. How? Doing stupid shit and yelling at me. Oh what a joy it is to live here in their house. While they get to go out after eating the food WE [meaning my family mainly my mom] prepared we sit here griping and moaning about what a fuckin pisspot deal it is that we're stuck here. They leave the TV on when they leave for like an hour or so... thats wasted energy and our money that is going down the fuckin drain! Will anyone listen to my suggestions to makin this place a more energy efficient hole in the ground? NO! Why save money when the kids can be used as a personal loan department that you dont have to fuckin pay back if you dont wanna?

3) My dad. Yes I know I should've slapped him up there infront with my mom but there is a reason he's here. He acts as a kind of silencer to me... what do I mean? He tells me to keep my mouth shut and just grin and bear it. Like living here is a fuckin pleasure. I wouldn't wanna live here if my life depended on it! The only bit of sanctuary I have around here is right out in back and in the small rectanglular space that is known as my 'bed' though I'd rather term it as my room since its the only real place I have any privacy in the day if I want. He keeps yelling at me to get a job or move out when I get pissed at something... Lets see him quit his job right now and find a job in this black hole of a market place. AND FOR ANYONE THAT AGREE'S WITH HIS LOGIC I'D LOVE TO SEE YOU DO THE SAME AS I SUGGESTED TO HIM!

4) Bill... That loathsome fuckin troll I bet if he were to see this journal he'd be foaming at the mouth from all the small mistakes in spelling and grammar use. He threatened to slice my throat then called the cops on me when I decided not to fight with him anymore. Fuckin coward... If he'd have come here I'd have given him a swift bitch slap with a bat. Every fur that knew him and me from the IRC knew we were at eachothers throats because the moron was badmouthing people I knew. Everyone said he was cool irl I'd like to see that for myself... after I've given him a good ol' punch to the face. I may be a pacifist most of the time but piss me off enough and I'll maul you to death for insulting my family/friends.

5) Certain furs in IRC... The main reason I rarely go to IRC anymore is because most of the people on there are jackass's that talk about people behind their back. You know who you are... calling me things that shan't be mentioned here...

6) Kuro Urufu. Why are you on my list? Look to the above statement. See that small section that says 'talk about people behind their back'? Yea... Yuchi told me you said I was creeping you out... if you had a problem with me then YOU FUCKIN TELL ME! I dont have a problem with people saying 'Hey your starting to get a bit outta hand here bud please stop." What I do have a problem with is people talking about me behind my back. I dont expect you to see this and tell me that I was creepy now... infact I dont expect you to talk to me at all. If you want to communicate we can start back at the begining or some shit but beyond this I dont expect to see you online on my list atleast.

7) Yuchi... why? Why would I put her on my list of people who've pissed me off? She's one of the furs that nagged at me to get a job/life. Pretty much insulted me because I wanted to hang out with her and meet her. Admittedly I was a pest in doing so but she pretty much bitch slaped the last time I asked to hang out with her... Here's what transpired:

yuchisohma (5:45:57 PM): ok
yuchisohma (5:46:02 PM): too bad i hate the mall
yuchisohma (5:46:02 PM): so
yuchisohma (5:46:04 PM): :p
Richanon (5:46:13 PM): o:
yuchisohma (5:46:51 PM): it's a place where wierdos and fags go that have no where else to go. no offense but I'd rather not see my old highschool fag buddies there.
yuchisohma (5:57:27 PM): I'm speaking from aperson who has hobbies outside of furries, who has friends who take her hout and who has a life, like the Navy. :p
yuchisohma (5:58:11 PM): Trust me, I'm a married woman. I do alot of shit with my life. I don't have a car adn you don't see me complaining.
yuchisohma (5:58:14 PM): I find a way around it.
yuchisohma (5:58:21 PM): I'll be blunt
yuchisohma (5:58:51 PM): Your desperate-ness is getting on my nerves, like you want us to pitty you. Well I'm sorry I'll be nice but at the same time I'm not gonna pitty you.
yuchisohma (5:58:53 PM): You're 21
yuchisohma (5:58:54 PM): go work
yuchisohma (5:58:57 PM): go to school
yuchisohma (5:58:59 PM): get a car
yuchisohma (5:59:00 PM): get a job
yuchisohma (5:59:02 PM): seriously
yuchisohma (5:59:14 PM): Furries like you, who just sit home and complain are the ones that piss me off

8) Myself... Why do I put myself on the list of people that piss me off? I'm far to easily manipulated by emotion. All my life people have manipulated me through some means of emotion whether that manipulation was inadvertent or not. Every generation has someone that complains about how easy kids have it now... Some of its true some of its bullshit that the older generations make up to try to lay meaningless guilt trips onto the younger generations. When I was a kid I was small and shy... I'm still shy but now when people see me 80% of them start to shuffle the otherway because they seem to expect me to snap and tear off their head only to shove it up their shitter... I constantly hear problems and see the pains of others. This doesn't help me feel any better. I'm far to easily manipulated by emotions... even if its inadvertent. I'm shy and soft spoken... dont blame me if you cant hear or see a ghost.