The only thing I want fur Christmas is the one thing I can't have.

So I should probably explain first, I lost my fiance at the end of September. My best friends, my heart, my soul, my everything. They decided they wanted to move on and I couldn't stop them, not that I would want to, I want them to be happy.

So here's the thing this is more of a vent than an actual Christmas list.
No gifts or amount of money or anything can fill this void I have. I loved him, he was my whole world, my everything. I don't want him back, he's happy now. What I do want is for the pain to be gone. For this void to be filled. It's hard losing someone who means more to you than your own life.

So yeah all I want fur Christmas is to not be sad or depressed or miserable for just one day. Sorry for the rant.