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6 years ago
Hey guys. I haven't posted in some time now. It looks like my last journal was 4 years ago. There should not be any excuse for it, so I can't think of one except to let you guys know what has been going on in my world.
I have been going through some very tough times. By tough, I mean mental abuse and marriage issues, and in general living. However these things are being straightened out.
I have been working on myself, finding who I am. I have also been really busy working and struggling to get by. Now that my husband is working again, we may be able to have somthing in life.
For a very long time I have been facing depression and for a while it got out of hand, so I distanced myself from the world. Along the way I lost my passion for art, but I would post some art once in a while over the years.
I would question whether or not I am good enough to even be considered a great artist. But I have recently discovered that I am only as good as I want to be. So once I get my shit together I will strive to be better. My computer died, so I can't do digital art until I get a new one. Which I pray is soon.
About my depression. It has been caused from feeling lost and alone. Feeling like I am not good enough for anybody and constantly wishing death on myself. But you know, there is so much more out there to worry about than just wallowing in self pitty. I just discovered that too. I put my foot down finally and stopped people from downing me and making me feel like nothing. Now the choice is to either love me or hate me.
I have come a very long way in the last 6 months. I quit smoking and today is day 68. I am eating healthier than I was. You know trying to get a hot bod lol. I am letting the real me out and showing the world who I am. I am tired of hiding behind a curtain when I should be the star of the show. New Year new me Right? Well I promise there will be a new me so get ready for a lot of randomness in the future. Buckle up because this road is about to get exciting.
Love you guys. Thanks for listening. Thanks for following.
I have been going through some very tough times. By tough, I mean mental abuse and marriage issues, and in general living. However these things are being straightened out.
I have been working on myself, finding who I am. I have also been really busy working and struggling to get by. Now that my husband is working again, we may be able to have somthing in life.
For a very long time I have been facing depression and for a while it got out of hand, so I distanced myself from the world. Along the way I lost my passion for art, but I would post some art once in a while over the years.
I would question whether or not I am good enough to even be considered a great artist. But I have recently discovered that I am only as good as I want to be. So once I get my shit together I will strive to be better. My computer died, so I can't do digital art until I get a new one. Which I pray is soon.
About my depression. It has been caused from feeling lost and alone. Feeling like I am not good enough for anybody and constantly wishing death on myself. But you know, there is so much more out there to worry about than just wallowing in self pitty. I just discovered that too. I put my foot down finally and stopped people from downing me and making me feel like nothing. Now the choice is to either love me or hate me.
I have come a very long way in the last 6 months. I quit smoking and today is day 68. I am eating healthier than I was. You know trying to get a hot bod lol. I am letting the real me out and showing the world who I am. I am tired of hiding behind a curtain when I should be the star of the show. New Year new me Right? Well I promise there will be a new me so get ready for a lot of randomness in the future. Buckle up because this road is about to get exciting.
Love you guys. Thanks for listening. Thanks for following.
