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6 years ago
I feel overwhelmed with packedrat. That came to a head with someone today, so I felt I should finally get this off my chest.
1.) I've been out of the community for a long time now. I've been talking with a very closed social group, and in a few discord servers that I'm making content with. At this point I'd really prefer to keep my stuff here separated due to the general rating of most of those places. A lot of my major issues with packed were that I wanted to make a game, and obviously a lot of people were more interested in the fetish side of packed (duh.)
2.) Donation crap hanging over my head. As far as I can tell... most donations seem to be for already created content, but I still have an extreme amount of hangups about people donating for future content. That is why i never made a patreon. Projects i make are projects for myself, not fame or money. My income situation is stable. I have no plans for making packed into a job, and at this point I hate the prospect. However the worries that people were... honestly played a roll in making me too afraid to work on it and risk growing more people doing that. I was constantly prodded to do donations and had friends giving the guidance of "go ahead" with some kind of tip jar. I regret it now. I don't know if i should just remove it entirely or not, because than people will inevitable also ask for it? I've made it more clear to only donate if you're showing interest in previously created content.
3.) I started posting small things a while back, and had comments asking about packed instead of the post itself. Considering my thoughts on packed at this point that only made me push away again. I'm not sure if I want to just make another fa account at this point for my usual weird shit, and isolate this one to just packed. I'm kinda lost and have way too many people watching, and it's all overwhelming. I'm just an idiot shit poster that codes crap for things I'm interested in. I'm not a people person, I am not good at community management, and am extremely overwhelmed when anything money related is part of the picture.
4.) Yes i will probably still pay for packed's hosting costs when the bill rolls around. It's still useful as an ftp server, and I don't think having 300+ messages of "what happened to vore game" in my inbox is fun to deal with.
I feel like packed with a mistake at this point. I just wanted to do some vore shit and see how far I could go with it. I got distracted with rainworld modding stuff in the same way I got distracted with remaking the megaman dos games working on vorefable. Fetish games don't seem to have a decent track record with me compared to more normal games. As so far all of those have been finished. Take it as you will. I'm not sure if I'll post on this account again, or if i'll make a new FA to escape packedrat questions and pokes. I'm frustrated at a lot of this, but i really can't blame people for being interested in something. I'm not a reliable or stable person.
Big question: Should I just make a new account for my weirder fetish crap and lock it away in there to keep it separated from packedrat expectations? I don't know if i can upload here without being poked about it, which has quickly become an irritation with the sourcecode release journal even being my featured journal.
1.) I've been out of the community for a long time now. I've been talking with a very closed social group, and in a few discord servers that I'm making content with. At this point I'd really prefer to keep my stuff here separated due to the general rating of most of those places. A lot of my major issues with packed were that I wanted to make a game, and obviously a lot of people were more interested in the fetish side of packed (duh.)
2.) Donation crap hanging over my head. As far as I can tell... most donations seem to be for already created content, but I still have an extreme amount of hangups about people donating for future content. That is why i never made a patreon. Projects i make are projects for myself, not fame or money. My income situation is stable. I have no plans for making packed into a job, and at this point I hate the prospect. However the worries that people were... honestly played a roll in making me too afraid to work on it and risk growing more people doing that. I was constantly prodded to do donations and had friends giving the guidance of "go ahead" with some kind of tip jar. I regret it now. I don't know if i should just remove it entirely or not, because than people will inevitable also ask for it? I've made it more clear to only donate if you're showing interest in previously created content.
3.) I started posting small things a while back, and had comments asking about packed instead of the post itself. Considering my thoughts on packed at this point that only made me push away again. I'm not sure if I want to just make another fa account at this point for my usual weird shit, and isolate this one to just packed. I'm kinda lost and have way too many people watching, and it's all overwhelming. I'm just an idiot shit poster that codes crap for things I'm interested in. I'm not a people person, I am not good at community management, and am extremely overwhelmed when anything money related is part of the picture.
4.) Yes i will probably still pay for packed's hosting costs when the bill rolls around. It's still useful as an ftp server, and I don't think having 300+ messages of "what happened to vore game" in my inbox is fun to deal with.
I feel like packed with a mistake at this point. I just wanted to do some vore shit and see how far I could go with it. I got distracted with rainworld modding stuff in the same way I got distracted with remaking the megaman dos games working on vorefable. Fetish games don't seem to have a decent track record with me compared to more normal games. As so far all of those have been finished. Take it as you will. I'm not sure if I'll post on this account again, or if i'll make a new FA to escape packedrat questions and pokes. I'm frustrated at a lot of this, but i really can't blame people for being interested in something. I'm not a reliable or stable person.
Big question: Should I just make a new account for my weirder fetish crap and lock it away in there to keep it separated from packedrat expectations? I don't know if i can upload here without being poked about it, which has quickly become an irritation with the sourcecode release journal even being my featured journal.
At this point there is no way I can keep up with the art tasks needed to work on packed myself. Everything ahead in it is simply "too much". Even if i started getting fan artists on board. I feel like it would burn them out faster then they realize. Especially on a project that I wanted to maintain consistent style on.
Just some stray thoughts mixed into this reply that didn't make the journal. Figured I'd say them.
Should you do something again, doing so in a lighter or more casual manner may be for you. You've picked up valuable experience here that you can use the in future. I wish you lots of luck in whatever you do next, and look forward to seeing that should you decide to
I guess for my part I enjoyed Packedrat for what it was, with no real expectation of a finished product. In some respects I'm amazed at how much content it ended up having by the end, and genuinely pretty fun as an actual game rather than purely for the vore aspects as with most fetish-focused games. Wish you all the best.
A big part of what killed packed was just how much it took to make a new enemy, along with all the interactions. I'm not an artist, I just draw. Doing art isn't fun. I don't enjoy the process like I do while coding and designing level stuff. I've been poked about finding guest artists, but that has a problem with conflicting styles, or forcing artists to share one style. Let alone the workload it takes to make a big game.
I'm glad it was enjoyed. I know a lotta people do, that's likely why there are so many people who are probably still hoping for an update, but at this point i don't think there ever will be. At least the source code is released.
Do what you need to do. Experimenting and sharing shouldn't be something that causes misery and stress, and I hope you're able to extract yourself from the negative side effects of your project and keep creating, learning and growing.
Honestly, there have already been people who made alternative accounts specifically for the game projects they were working on, for example,
Being in the same boat, I don't know if I can actually give advices, but I'll do that anyway : Try to do things that are very small, because that way you can actually finish them quickly and feel good about completing them. Otherwise you do some big things, never get to finish them, and get frustrated and feeling bad about it all. Doing small projects is actually the hardest thing to accept.
Another thing that might help to keep the project true to your vision is to share it only with a restricted number of people that you know, and not publicly. Only share it publicly when it's near completion. That way you don't end up building up expectations and feeling like you might be disapointing people.
In any case, I've loved both Vore Fable and Packed (but especially Vore Fable I have to say), and I hope that no matter what you do, you will enjoy it, because that's the most important.
i hope your situation will get better after this journal. but im sure as some mentioned already that some still wont get the message. however you decide, if you keep this around or make a new one. your work will still be appriciated by many
I will hear your choice dark
I want year you are happy instead just habe one game
I become one fan whit my kink whit search secrets eheh but i know i will not find them XP but not matter for me i only will are happy when i know you are happy
Many people here, including myself, will stick with you no matter what option you take. I'm looking forward to your future content, and may it be something you enjoyed making. :>
It hurt when you first announced you quit packed, and it hurts now.
Darklord, I know that you got to do what you got to do, but I can't help but want to express my undying hatred to those who infest projects like these, they pester, they rush, they are dispicable leeches that want and want, more and more, sucking the life out of those who create until they can create no more, and the rest of us.. The silent few who leave you to do your work, we have to use our inferior imaginations to come up with a conclusion to what may never be done.
The same thing happened to
There's no doubt in my mind that he's never going to work on blubarbftr again for as long as he lives and it's because of this same mob of impatient cunts who contribute nothing and just want everything. I can't stand it, I really can't.
Message me if you make it, though. I'm a quiet follower who just wants to see what artists make when they're inspired. :>