Last Friday night, me and my friends decided to watch the yearly fireworks display where I used to study in college. Honestly, I was never a fan of fireworks and only watched twice in our school.

The fireworks initially looks great but I think the last part was a "bit strong" whereas the loud sounds and bright lights made me 'scared' resulting to me continuously screaming and heavy breathing until my friend finally calmed me.

I never experienced that in a fireworks before, and even in horror movies my usual reaction would just be being startled. I mostly scream as a result in having breakdowns from some thing. My initial diagnosis(during screening) was depression, is that a factor of that behavior or is it a more common thing(hopefully)

For people who are wondering why I am posting it here rather than asking a professional is because I'm already scheduled to see one around January, so I had to wait til then and it just got me curious and paranoid at the same time. I don't really post something like these to my RL social media as I'm always afraid of people I know that may judge me.

Honestly Im scared from that experience. Most of the time people judged me from my unusual behavior similar to that and it's really uneasy for me not knowing the proper reasons.